I made it on 50Cent's Top friends list by just posting his release cd image as my default!!! yeah. It's still on there its bottom under Melissa! Here's a screenshot.

27 & still living with parents...i had a great blog here til i hit the damn back button*cries*!!!@#$%^ I am pissed today because my mom made me madd becuz i wanted to use her car to go to walmart of all places!!! She was like no u can't go urself...i just went a year being seizure free....i mean shes got to let me go or at least trust me.She treats me like a kid i am getting so sick of it...i just want to try and have a life.I don't ask for much.She wants me to do things that she can do but just dont relize that she kkeps asking it from me.I do as much as i can for her.I have no life,no friends,only family.Live in the damn woods...i do have my music and the internet.uggg so hating life at this moment!!!O yeah everyone should listen 2 the new Manson cd! I love it!

ok i don't have a steady job,but here latley i have been cleaning for ppl.It's so crazy how ppl live in there own filfth.today i went with my aunt and cousin's wife to clean a apartment that caught on fire only behind the stove. not really damage.we had to clean the walls,all kinds of stuff.It took us 5 hours thats with 3 ppl.Then after that we had to clean a double wide trailer,it was almost empty the ppl were moving out.we only had to do the whole thing.we finaly got done late i had a headache must been the car ride or my sinus,prolly both.Saturday i will be starting on the college apartments thats going to be crazy.Dirty...Dirty...Dirty!!!

So i miss my past friends.My past xcrush/1stlover/friend!I know its nuts but what can i say.I recently saw his ex-fiance & she wouldn't even speak to me,given our history she could have at least spoke.So i wrote my crush/lover/friend & he was like what.He didn't know she worked where i had told him.Then i find out that he might be moving closer to the place where she works,but for basically for his new gf! We went to high school with her.Before this girl he was living with a gay man,i am still trying to figure out what happened there.The weird thing about it is why would he never date me like this new girl?? I use to do everything for him & his child, hell i raised it.I guess i am jealous in ways, oh well.As bad as i hate to admit he manipulated me so bad,but yet again i still miss his friendship.I was my 1st love,lost my virginity to him,high school friend,crush,use to live with him...yeah u get the point.i guess i have the right to be a little jealous.Maybe oneday i will get to date someone,well if i get to leave my moms house.Things are hard since i don't have a job,just got my license back.I don't have a car,only my moms i Don't get to drive it much since the gas an all.I just want what others have in away.I thought i wanted a bf since i have never had one but i think i just want a friend with benefits. The funny thing about him having a new chick is that today she added me 2 her myspace was a surprise.I am happy for them.I am just bitter because i can't have what they have.Time will only tell. Anyways i feel better since i got that out!

It's good to hear from old friends.I was so happy that one finally contacted me.Yes finally I got to talk with Andrea.She was like I didn't forget you.I missed my old friends.It's great to know they still care.Anyways the other night Sarah finally came up to see me after year or so.She has grown up.She got in a wreck the other night got a broken arm, her bf got a Broken nose.I started another drawing of my little cousin emma.I am going to try and to draw shawn too.The new year was good.Things are the same.i can't wait til i can drive again.I will be happy when mAy comes around.

Ok so i am pretty new to site,I have been enjoying the playlist i can make.So of the music isn't on here.If i have them i upload them.