You lose your sleep at nights
Morning sun refuses to rise
Your eyes get stuck at a point in the ceiling
A ringing starts in your ears, maddening
Neither the bed sheet understands, nor the pillow
The light you wait for does not enter through your windows
You turn to your bed and cry for your helplessness
The memory that you can't forget fills inside you
As if you took a deep breath from your cigarette
You will understand one day what it means to love
One thay, you will understand that everything is actually vain
Honor, virtue, goodness, beauty
A day comes when you hit your head to the cold stone walls
Just to hear that voice only once
The hurt and brokenness in your feelings grow and grow
You feel
Deep inside the pain of being desperate
You will understand one day what it means to love
One day, you will understand what your hands are for
What you were created for
Why you came to this disgusting world
You watch your beauty in the mirrors, with no hurry
And you feel the pain of those years that passed by in vain
Your eyes get wet, you feel grieved
You will understand one day what it means to love
One day, you will understand the taste of the loved lips
You will understand how out of reach the loved eyes are
When that totally unexpected time comes
You hair falls on your eyes, but white
Your hands try to reach the sky
But desperate
But tired
But exhausted
One day, you sleep towards the past
And the painful truths line up one after another
You will understand one day what it means to love
One day, you will understand to dream
To wait
To hope
Like a dirty shirt, you want to take off and throw away
The fearful night wrapping your hole body
You curse that you live
You tear apart and throw away whatever you have left from the past
Then, a flower grows on my grave, by itself
That day, you will understand that I love you
✿✿✿ Ümit Yaşar Oğuzcan ✿✿✿
