That One 'want'
Posted in Bett's Sweets n Candies on Mar 25, 2008 at 3:31 PM
Current Mood: confused
Feeling excited? nopes.
Feeling happy? bits.
Feeling sad? bits.
Moody? yes.
PMS? yups.
Hungry? not at all. i dunno y. im feeling bloated.
Bad day? Kindoff.
Feel like crying? yesh. haiz.
Ok..Ok..this will neva reach a conclusion.
Dunno wats wrong. Sumtin just dsnt seem right.
I dun feel like going out tomorrow. I wanna stay home.
I dun feel like shopping. I wanna stay home.
I dun feel like doing anytin..I Just Wanna Stay Home.
It's a feeling dat nobody will understand.
It's a want that i really want.
It's a desire that i wanna work on but seem impossible.
It was once a want that nearly became a want.
Unfortunately, it failed even before i reached the want that i tot was possible.
This time, i have to wait long to reach what i want.
Im left with no choice unless i decide to leave that want that i want.
Once i leave that want, i'll hv to move on.
It wun be easy..but deadly.
Its not that i wasnt thinking about it at all. I was. For many times indeed. But it dsnt get so serious until this afternoon. I felt that what mum and dad discussed were truly the truliest true. It's very difficult wen u are torn between two. You just dunno who to side or go against with. Sobs. Its terrible.
Lets leave it to fate. I believe fate is a gift. I may not get what i want. But, im sure that want will be replace with a definitely-to-get-want.
Kita merancang, Tuhan yang menentukan.
I live with this phrase. I believe in it.
Im glad that dad has finally, officially approved. Isnt it great? Hehe.
I still have a loOOooong way to go.
I shall think about working hard to get as many increments as possible.
I shall think about doing well at work to get early promotions.
I shall think about studying again.
I shall think about making more friends and enjoy life as it is.
I shall do things that i've not done or has stopped doing for sometime.
I shall shall venture into new things, subjects, topics.
I shall learn to love myself before devoting myself to love someone
-a guy ofcourse-i dunno who yet-only god knows..cos only HE sees my future.
i shall stop. someone wants to speak to me.
logoff,
BEtt
MINE-2008
Posted in Bett's Sweets n Candies on Jan 01, 2008 at 2:53 PM
Current Mood: tired
Gosh..time is running fast that it's already 2008!
I felt like i was just born yesterday!
Looking at the mirror - i've grown pretty tall..still slim..hmm..what else?
Oh ya..pretty old too. Mum is much2 older. Haha. She celebrated her bifdae today. The whole world celebrated her bifdae! Cool.
Miserable me celebrated new year..at work..on night shift..sleepy n watery eyes. cant wait to finish that last night..looking forward for the sleeping day n dayoff..coming soon..my 3 PHs that im claiming this weekends. Yeay! What a start for new year!!
Everyone must have made individual's resolutions n listling their 2008 aims n goals.
For me? Well...ofcourse..plus my unfinished business in 2007. Lols.
Nurbaiti's Resolutions?
I want to be the best AN in my ward and hopefully the higher authority is able to see the potential in me for greater heights. In short--I WANT A PROMOTION (that adds to the wages too..wee!)
I wanna be a patient person. I never was..(i admit..i was silly during 'that 4mths')
I wanna be more friendly to the SUN (been cursing it for burning my skin..esp my face)
I wanna do something dat allows me to earn xtra $$$ (no money, no talk lehh..)
Nurbaiti's Wishlist?
-a car for myself
-latest game device - currently, PSP Slim
-room makeover- which inc, new paiting, new bed, my very own TV, my own space..etc.
-getting rid of the computer table (taking up too much space)
-gf for my bro, Abdul Ridzuan
-a niece or nephew
-get engaged to 'whoever' comes knocking the door at first come first served basis..(lols..joke2)
-rich in health, wealth and life..
-more admirers..heheks.
basically, my wish is..TO GET WHATEVER I'VE WISHED FOR..
add-ons: i wanna be mean dis year. Been too nice to people dat i've finally realised, were actually hypocrites. argh.
*munching on Mochi. Nicey!!!!
Gtg. Cheers 2008!!
Best of luck to myself,
-BEtt
SyawaL
Posted in Bett's Sweets n Candies on Oct 21, 2007 at 1:27 PM
Berlalulah sudah Ramadhan,
Sebulan berpuasa..
Tiba Syawal kita raikan,
Dengan rasa gembira..
WeeeEeee~!
Been thru a tough fasting month but im still feeling great! It wasnt easy for me as it had been totally different this time. Im working...n well...my work needs loads of physical movement n soOooo...water loss was excessive! Being not able to eat n....DRINK...was damn tough. There were incidents whereby i nearly fainted..or blackouts. Sometimes, i walk aimlessly...so the lack of energy! When i think back bout those times..i'll L.O.L. hehe.
And then, come Hari Raya. Honestly, i had a terrible raye. I dun feel like celebrating it at all. Maybe because im working and im too tired to even get excited over it. What excite me the most is..distributing 'hangbao' to all my lil'ones. Its been a pleasure. I finally feel like.."hey..im an adult"...a WORKING ADULT to be exact. Cool kan?
My first Raya outfit was gorgeous...Second day SUX. Simply SUX. I dunno y. I just hate that day. I hated myself from head to toe. It was hotttt...n i was wearing ALL BLACK. --well yah..imagine.
3rd day was back at work..i miss my patients. I'd rather go to work actually. Haha. Im happy!
Den comes my NIGHT SHIFT which ive been waiting for.
1st night- i cud control. i wasnt so sleepy coz i had Uncle Yunus! We chatted alot!
2nd night-gosh..i saw..sumtin...or shud i say..'someone'. I was so sleepy that i kept on nodding my head..lols. N i had a great shock of my life wen i saw a reflection of a lady looking out of the window of my night counter. I thought it was just an illusion..but...'it' disappeared right before my eyes!!! N hell yah...i was sure it was TRUE. I actually saw something!!!! Guess wat? I wasnt sleepy the whole night thru afta that. My eyes was big-opened. I wasnt scared tho..i was just SHOCKED. Serious. I think i look terribly WHITE after that.
3rd night-i was hoping that it'll be a good night. But..it was terrible! I had stomach pain..i dunno how many times i went in n out of the toilet. Bf keeps me companied. I had to put down coz of natures calling. N yeah..as i was concentrating on 'it'...i heard 3 knocks on the toilet door. I wasnt thinking of anything but the fact that every single hair on my skin r raising up all the way up to my spine..urge me to get out of the toilet ASAP. So..i quickly washup n while i was doing that, i called my BF. I opened the door n gushed my way thru that dark pathway..to the dormitory. OMG. I admit..i was DAMN SCARED. I dun think its any of my collegues coz..IM THE ONLY ONE LOOKING AFTER THAT PLACE. The other 2 collegues of mine r in another dormitory. Argh!
But hey! Im brave yah? Im still able to go toilet after that. Haha. I tried not to think of anything. Besides..IM BRAVE. LoLs. No...im not. Its just that..I HAD TO. COz..IT WAS URGENT.
Now im having my sleeping day..n tomorrow is OFFday! Yeyey!
I need rest,
-BEtt
Family Affair
Posted in Bett's Sweets n Candies on Sep 19, 2007 at 12:57 PM
Current Mood: frustrated
Everything started..pretty fine until the 'fat' issue came in. Argh. I really hate it wen someone spoils my day. Surprisingly, it's my dad. Yes..MY DAD. He makes everything terrible today..be it for me..my mum n ESPECIALLY..my brother.
To be honest, if i am my bro..i wud have done worse! Serious.
We were breaking fast together and mum was telling dad about this person who introduced a lady to my brother. I was attentively listening and hoping that it is an exciting news for everyone. Then..comes my dad..asking a..SILLY QUESTION- how old is that lady? Does she know that u r...(he shows that puffy cheecks-he was trying to say "FAT"). Well..definitely, it is a sensitive issue. Gosh..at that moment, i looked down pretending not to listen..n..i was very sure that something bad is going to happen. Yeah..as usual..im always smart. My Brother actually got mad and stompped out of the kitchen. While doing that..he was mumbling some unhappiness words directed to my dad. I thought he was too kind tho. If it was me, i wud have..hmm..shouted directly to my dad's face n tell him that i hate him.
I dunno why. But i hate dad today. He was unhappy wen mum told him that he was wrong. He was saying that bro was rude and he shudnt act like that. Well..for me, he ought to act that way!!! Hello...u r like moralising my bro and looking down on him. Argh!! Why make 'FAT' an issue in that topic? Its not like as tho the girl is going to reject him if he's fat!
I dunno what's my dad's intention. He claims that he's intention was good but..it hurts alot tho. Poorthing.
I think dad continue grumbling to mum about how rude my bro was...n my bro who was sleeping got a bladdy scolding from mum. I know mum. She dun mean to scold bro. She do it just to satisfy my dad. I think mum nearly cried. Well, i know that she understands my bro at the same time mad with my dad. But..she has no choice.
I feel like telling dad off. I dunno y he has to be sensitive wen he was the one who is wrong! And yeah..he was saying my bro is rude? What about his children den?? Has he ever scold dem right away wen they were rude to mum? NO. NEVER. He cant be bothered wen it comes to his children. But if its either me or bro..wooOo..he's always complaining to mum..mum got stressed n scolded us...hopefully that satisfy him enough. I dun think so..because we'll usually get a lecture from him-it may last for hours..
But wen it comes to mum's turn to complain about his children..i dun see him scolding his kids like how mum scolded us. Well..that's unfair. And if mum scold his children, he'll get mad. But wen mum scold us..hmm..it may seem like a show to him..i guess. But he does support us sometimes. I dun need that tho. I prefer mum to scold me and that's it. If he joins..it'll get longer. Unless my mum wish to beat me..well, that's the time i'll need dad to shelter me. Daddy's girl! But not today..!
Now..its 8.30pm. Believe it or not, the lights are off. Nobody has mood. Neither do i.
In conclusion..i think dad shud atleast apologise for his hurting words. Old people are always stubborn and always think that they r always right.
Children always have to ask forgiveness from their parents during raya.. But, i think..its even more wise if parents ask for forgiveness from their children too.. right?
-BEtt
There were loads nof tears..
Loads of silence and then followed by bursting out of anger..
Loads of thoughts..
Loads of anger..n sadness.
But see..it end up fine just like usual.
Whenever an argument or quarrels or any problems comes in between me n him, i always tell myself that it's a norm of a relationship. I dunno to what extent im true. But..every relationship does have loads of problems. I cant possibly hope for a Non-Problematic-Relationship coz..it only occurs if there's ignorance in the relationship.
Probably..they cant be bothered with their partners and nothing their partner does hurt dem any further. In other words- There isnt any L.O.V.E. And yeah..im wondering now, why do dey still stay on to each other then? Such relationships do exist. No matter how loving that couple is..there are bound to be problems that had occurred many-many times that hold dem strong..stronger than before. My mum always tell me that having problems n solving them together with your partner helps in promoting closeness in relationship bonds. I do agree. It does occur to me. That's how i found out..how effective a problem is. Hmm.
But yeah..it truly depends on what the problem is. As for me, the most unforgivable mistake a partner can do is getting involve with a 3rd party. That's it. Other than that..shud be fine and tolerable.
3 days ago, i had encountered a problem which i thought was unforgivable:
I was ready for work on that beautiful saturday. I was excited to see him- well, i missed him!! As usual, we wud confirm the time we'll meet for that day-1pm. Bro wanted to send me but i refused telling him happily that my BF will pick me up. I was sure that sumtin was wrong with my BF's silence. He will usually msg me wen he leaves home or in the bus otw to meet me. So, i decided to msg him as it was already late! --Im very particular about punctuality at work. He replied my msg stating that i shud only get out of home if he calls. He told me that he was "at the mosque.." and he "wants to pray first". OK..since he made that a priority..y wud i object? But hey..im goin work here..not goin shopping! So..i left home in a hurry and headed for work. I told him that i'll go work myself. He insisted that i shud wait for him n we'll head to my workplace together with a cab.
Afterall..i've known him long enuff to detect lies within him. I dunno y. I guessed, God loves me. I got this strong feeling that my BF was lying. And..true enuff, HE WAS. How did i confirmed? Well..when i reached work, he was downstairs waiting for me. He begged me to meet him. He said..he will not be able to take it if he wun see me before he goes back to camp. Out of pity, i agreed.
1) He was with sleeveless top and 3/4 pants.
2) He looks tired
3) He carries nuttin with him
Conclusion: A muslim guy shud only pray if he's fully covered. No sleeveless tops or shorts or 3/4 pants. He shall either wear long pants or sarong. His attire was not an acceptance. He looks tired means..he hasnt freshen up from that bladdy soccer he had that morning and he carries nuttin with him!! Means..he has no sarongs or longsleeve shirt with him. Doesnt that shows..he just lied??
He was trying reli hard to convince me wen i questioned him..gosh. He shud be lucky that im not a fool. He's playing with the wrong kid. Im no kid to kid with!!!
At that moment..i felt betrayed..listless..lost and stupid. I wonder y was he daring enuff to lie? Well..later he told me that he fell asleep. He cud have just told me the truth. Its not like as if im gonna kill him or sumtin if he tells me that!
I do understand liars r those who r fearful of troubles but dey dun realise that they will end up creating more troubles!!
He just did. I was was deeply hurt. I felt like a dumb. I thought he was fooling me. I asked myself if that was his first lie or was it a norm for him? What about missing me and loving me? Are they lies too?!!
See..that was deep thoughts running across my mind. I avoid him for quite sometime to staightened back my mind before i cud solve the issue. We managed to.
I dun deny..it does still hurt tho. He loses my trust. Loads of it. I just hope that he's still aware of what he had done. His intentions might be good but unfortunately, not good for me. To me, he was starting to lie n a lie will lead to another lie...and another lie will lead to another but bigger lie. Eventho he had promised he wun do it again..im not 100% sure tho. Its up to him to put up the show n i shall decide if its fiction or not.
I am still angry..i am still sad. But, i believe..every mistake made is a new turnover for each of us. I hope we learned from this n make sure it shall not be repeated. Well, i hope. As ive said, problems do make us stronger as a couple. Each of us have to play apart to maintain that.
-BEtt
boO-hOo
Posted in Bett's Sweets n Candies on Aug 26, 2007 at 2:52 PM
Sobs. My Boo is back to camp today. Each time he's otw to camp i'll be like..so moody- not wanting to talk to anyone, just lying around the bed staring at the 4 walls n this bladdy plain ceiling. Haish. Im so upset. Well, altho i do spend quality time with him..i still miss him alot. There..again..Bett...as usual..cnt be seperated from hubby for even a minute. Hurhurr. When he's back from camp..just the thought of him staying home is comforting enuff. Haha. I just want him to be around..in AMK..where its near..to Hougang. LoLs. So anything happen, he can rush here. hehe. Or..i'll rush there..(i will..serious!)
Im on the phone with him now.. he's like asking "who bully u? hmm?" - Sweet kan my hubby?! hehe. And im munching on the FamousAmos choc chip biscuit he bought specially for me...-remind me of him..sobs.
How i wish..his camp is just beside my block. So that i can peep at wat he's doing. Hehe. N yeah..him being beside my block is still not as good as him being beside me. But..its still good la! Just the thought of him being there..'beside' me..will make me contented. LoLs. Melampau ehk aku! Hahahahaah. Kata sayang sey..rindu lagik..haish.
My hubby getting cuter laa day by day. I think..he looks good wen he's botak..lols. And yah..i think i'll look good with shorter hair..(he'll kill me even before i cud say it)..haha.
Im like now..looking forward for my OFFday wic is on Saturday. N im so sure..its gonna be a great time in ECP with my YEP darlings! I miss dem soOooo much! I cant wait to have fun again..its been a long time sey. Hehe. OoOOoo~ im soOoo excited!!! I kept telling hubby about it. He's like.."yaLaaa". Hahaha. Am i a nag? lols.
After so long with him..n after much observations..i realised..he like to stare at me. Why eh? Sumtimes i feel so uneasy- like.. "am i messy?".."got insect on my face?".."err..sumtin on my face?"....aiyo! Haha. Paranoid ok! But yalah..actually i know why...he just cant believe he have such a sweet GF..LoLs. Perasan eh aku! Im yet to ask him! Will ask him...later. Hehehehe.
Klah..miss hubby. Wanna tok to him!
-BEtt 
Its August. I've not forgotten. Its fresh in mind.
How sad can that be? Im sitting all alone..thinking of all the sweet memories i had with him. Just the slightest mistake...n he ruined it all. He shatted my joys..my excitement..n foremost, my dreams. He ruined everything i've ever wanted in life- vowed to be with him for the rest of my life. N now..he's gone. We're gone. We hear nuttin from each other anymore. It ended just like dat? No..we suffered. For months. I guessed, he suffered more..for regretting his mistake. I do not regret a single decision i made because..i believe in giving chances. But, he misused dem..n i had to let him go. For the last time..i dun intend to turn back. Not even once. Coz..theres no more trust..n not even love. Hatred came ruling my mind..N there is no place left in my heart for him. For that guy..who once charmed above all guys i've met..n for once in my life i tot he was the last..-KhairiL.
I dunno y..i feel like he owes me a living. Or i am the one who owes him a living? I felt sad hearing him suffered alot after the break. I was asking myself..was i being too cruel? But i dun think so. I was nice indeed. Hmm. It sets me puzzled y he had to broke down so badly. N it hurts.
But yeah. Its over now. Im not brooding over it. Im just upset that..everything's planned are ruined. Two families were ready to unite n there came a disaster that hit all of us badly. Especially, mum. I think..she cried alot. More den me. Haha. Gosh..sumtimes..it keeps me thinking..whois in love now? Lols.
After him..i told myself dat im goin to look for a very mature guy..above 24. Ready to get married. Coz..i wanna get over with SINGLE life very soon. I dun wanna wait. I hate waiting. I admit..IM AN IMPATIENT PERSON. I told mum..i'll be married by 23. i'll have my baby at 25. By the time im 30..i wanna have 2 kids...n enuff. Haha. Mum was serious bout dat too! Lols.
But..all shattered again wen i met this guy..from sch..engineering guy. Initially..i wanted to avoid fallin in love with him coz i wanna stand firm with my dreams. But hey..love is magic. I dunno y..but i decided to be with him..after much wait. I dun und y i was too patient at that time coz..i cud easily get another older guy..whois just waiting to get a wife-to-be. But...love cnt be forced. If thers no love..theres no unity. N wen ders no unity..no marriage. I guess..i love him for being a good companion n his care was worthy. Finally we were together..n i was telling myself.."OMG..dis guy is still so young..just abt to enter NS..not much income..how the heck am i suppose to reach those dreams of mine??" I had second thoughts. I noe its bad..but hey..everyone has dreams!!!! n u r suppose to reach for it!
But yah..i soon realize..in any means..i have to break those dreams. Coz im too in love with dis guy. What shud i do? Ask for break? just because i wanna reach that dream? Im being selfish then.
Sumtimes..i do irritate him. Asking wen the heck r we getting engaged? Wen r we getting married? Well..not because im a desperado or sumtin..im just..excited bout my past..n i forget about the present. I've always thought im ready for that. N now..i have to wait longer. I really hope it wun take too long tho. Im like contemplating rite now. I have another dream..i wanna keep studying n not engaged so dat..im free to do anything to upgrade my qualifications. N i'll only get married after im satisfied with my achievements. That wud take..a total of 6yrs. So..it means..i'll only get married wen im 26. Hows dat? Sounds prettt cool actually.. Yeah..im ok with that. I think its time to think abt myself...for once. Since i have to wait..y not make use of those time to study? I really hope to study overseas. Goshhhh.............n werk in Australia. That is ofcoz my dream! Im like trying to be nice with dad..so dat he can allow me to. I dun wanna stay here..everyone is goin der. I dun wanna be left behind.
Its gonna be sad tho..being away from love ones. But who cares..im upgrading myself for my future. So? Whats the big deal? Anywae..im free to do anything i want. Its a free country! LoLs.
So..i mite need help in this. Drop comments..n give suggestions. Thanks.
Tata!
-BEtt
Changing Minds
Posted in Bett's Sweets n Candies on Aug 20, 2007 at 1:28 PM
Current Mood: cranky
I kept changing my mind.
Now im thinking..that 'it' is still ok..
Yesterday i was in deep thought n was sure 'it' was not okay at all.
Hmm..so isit my mind keep changing or isit the things around me?
The 'it' dat i was referring to is...MY JOB. Yes, MY JOB.
I was upset yesterday..was in tears over the phone with him. I kept saying i wanna give up. I wanna end this job. I cudnt take it animore. But, wen i think about it NOW..its actually not bad afterall compared to others. I believe others have gone thru worse than me. In any aspects of life..watever we go thru..n its terrible..we gotta tell ourselves..there r people who suffered the worst. Worse than us. Much-much worse. True?
Today as usual..it was a drag to work. But as soon as i reached work..i told myself..its goin to be a gd day. And..it definitely was. I send a patient to AH. It is bored. I'd prefer to stay in the ward with the rest of my patients. But..probs occurred..n i had to go after much considerations n alterations made. I was contented that the mission was accomplished. Today was the first time i send patient all by myself. After 1 practice with Daniel. Im pretty much confident now.
Now..i've made up my mind. Whatever the circumstances are..im holding on. I have my family n him for support.
My BF have been the one who goes thru this hard phase with me. I must say..he did a wonderful job by encouraging me n giving me all the golden support i needed. There were upteen episodes whereby i throw tantrums at him..uttering nonsense to him..bla..bla. But, he stood cool and always there for me. I've always admired his patience n level of tolerance esp towards me-his lioness GF. I admit..i can be really stubborn and difficult to control at times. And wen that happen, i simply wun listen..and i'll refuse to talk. My dear hubby will have a hard time consoling me then. Poorthing. Sorry Sayang..for giving u a hard time despite knowing u already having a bad time in camp. I'll just have to say..my moods are uncertain. But hubby..u gotta keep strong ok? Continue being patient with me. I need you. Muacks.
Just got a MSN messsage. Mr Hafiz got an accident. Poor thing. Skidded while conerring. Good try! Do it again! I'd love to see u do those stunts...hahaha.
Bj owes me 1000wrds of testimonial. humphs. "y am i waiting.....~"
I ate ice-cream just now. WooOoo~ cravings are gone. lols.
Tomorrow i'm afternoon. Can sleep late tonite. Weehee~!
Ohyah..my BF's friendster profile got hacked. I dunno who the heck did dat. Im sure gonna wack that idiot to upsidedown. BEWARE. Im watching you.. How can u easily typed the word 'SL*T' in der??!! Fancy claiming my BF n his bandmates SL*TS??!! Whois the sl*t? Izit You? Do it in ur own profile then. Mind ur own business if u are one bladdy SL*T (my mum neva tot me to use those words u knw..). Dun make others a sL*t like you. Coz in this whole wide world..only one can be called SL*T. Its YOU..Slut..(oops..gotta mention dis time. sorry,but u deserve it.)
Lights Off..!
-BEtt
Night Wonders
Posted in Bett's Sweets n Candies on Jul 30, 2007 at 9:32 AM
Current Mood: content
How was my first night?
It was great..damn great..lols. I kept hearing things. Be it someone in the toilet..unexpected flushes..pipes running..scary huh?
Am i hallucinating? Lols.
Well, im lucky i had Froilan. Without him, i'll be dead asleep in the night counter. We were talking about our scary encounters n experiences. We were talking about different ghosts..lols. We were wondering y the MRT station between serangoon n potong pasir is not werking. There was an abandoned house in sengkang in the mid of the field. About old tamp road.. SCARY!! We r scaring ourselves arent we?? Hahaha. And then, we were talking about our religion. He was a catholic converted to christianity. We were taliking about our prophets. I find quite alot of similarities between us. hmm.
All my patients r sound asleep. How can i not be sleepy? BEsides, theres nuttin to do. i had to update our quota board for the next day. Clear schedules. Updating the I/O charts. I was only busy at 11.30pm doing changing n keeping the environment safe n clean. I had my break at about 12.30 till 01.30am. I had plenty of time but nuttin to do!! Most of the time i was sitting, looking blankly outside my night counter. I shall bring a book along today so that, i can keep myself occupied. At 5am i did my clinical charts. At 6.30am my patients had woken up n getting ready for shower. They r mostly independent so i only had to supervise dem. Did the topical applications..diapers..n 7.30am was time to go home.
I was too sleepy that i headed home with a cab. Extra $2.00!! Argh. I didnt realise that until it was time to pay. N there was jam! Damn. But i cudnt be bothered. Coz, im too sleepy. I just wanna get home as soon as possible! I cud hear my bed calling for me.. Haha.
I thought i could sleep rigth after i stepped into the house. Unfortunately, i wasnt sleepy at all!! So..I only slept at about..9.30am. I woke up at 3.30pm. I had a good sleep! Hahaha. Im not sleeping animo or else..i might get the headache.
Im waiting for JINSHUN!!! Its finishing soon. I just cant wait to see them get married. Hehehe.
I find them qute. Like ME n HIM. Hehehe. We argue for lil' things. N im always controlling him...n giving in at the same time. Hahaha. Cute kan??!! I wanna be like dem. So loving n cute. Haishh.
Ok, i shall stop here. Im hungry. Im craving for ice-cream now..hmm. *HINTS*
Tata-Titi-Tutu!
-BEtt
