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blog post Crying Villain
Category: Poems
Posted: Jul 28, 2009 at 1:32 AM
Current mood: tired of this s**t
Hello Villain
I just want to tell you something
While you’re down there sobbing
Begging
Aching for another chance
I want you to know something,

I should have seen this all coming
And the funny thing is,
I did-
But you’re still here
Sobbing at my feet
Still begging,

Did you know that I once cared?
Man, I use to love you too
In a crazy friendly way,
And I would ignore all those nasty lies
Tell your bullies to shut up
And I would look down at you
And oh shit I would see nothing but you,

I once had a hero
She came when I was entering my darkest hour,
She opened many doors for me
When I was too weak,
I was finally seeing a future for myself
Something other then failure,
She helped lead me to my paradise
My Eden,
And…she didn’t follow me there
But I was there,

I was in a place where no one could touch me
No one could hurt me,
I was happy there
And this special place
Is where I watched you unmask yourself

As my fucken villain-

Oh you and your flames
They shot up out of the ground
Destroying everything around me,
You took my paradise and tore it apart
Laughing the entire way,
You beat me
Hurt me
Stabbed
Shot
Poisoned
Hung
And kicked me while I was down,

You fucken bitch-

I hate you,
I hate your name
I hate your voice
And your laughter
And, oh God, I just fucken hate you

How could you?
What did I do?
Tell me, please, so I know
I want to know what went wrong
Because you were once a hero,

I scream your name at night
When I’m alone,
I scream so loud but your face
It never goes away,
I cry and wonder
If you even give a damn,
I ran from you
So fucken far away,
I left my life behind
And I put so much distance between you and me…

But somehow you managed to find me
And now here you are
At my feet,
You tell me how much you care
And that you love me,

But I don’t love you-

I don’t love you anymore-

You tore me apart
Why should I suffer that again?
You’re a traitor
A villain pretending to be a hero
Or is it a villain dressing up
As a hero?

It doesn’t matter anymore
You gave me my Eden
And I will keep it,
You can’t have any part of it,
My real friends and family
Oh they’re all here,
I let them in
I’m surrounded by people who care
But they don’t hurt me,

You’re the only one not in here
So just go away,

Hello Villain
My crying
Sobbing
Aching villain,
I want to tell you something
So shut up and listen

You tell me that you love me
That you’ve always loved me,
And at one time I loved you too
Somewhere in my past
I smiled at you,
Back when you were my hero
I felt no hate
I never cried
And I found happiness,

But you’re sick
A terrible person
Who has the power to hurt me,
And I don’t love you anymore
Do you hear me?

But here we are,
You at my feet
Begging for forgiveness
A second chance,
And you can cry for days
And I’ll never love you again,

Maybe it’s cruel
I dunno
What do you think?
You would know best,
Did I turn out to be the person
You wanted me to be?

You won’t see me again
Only by chance,
I kicked you out
And even though I scream your name
And cry your name through my tears
I don’t want you,
I don’t want you,

But you still love me
And I’m tired of this war,
This stupid endless war
That distance clearly cannot fix,
So it’s time to end it
Our battles have been fought
My white flag is flying high,
So if you truly love me
If you really do care
Then walk away,

Please,
Turn,
And leave me behind
Because I left you behind
And you need to do the same,
Love me forever
Hate me forever
Cry forever
But please,
Walk away…

I’m gone
The war is fought
You won
My villain,
You have won.

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Fact #1: I have many aliases and you've just stumbled upon one of them.

Fact #2: I write about many things, a good chunk of it centering around different worlds full of vampires. Just call me the vamp freak.

Fact #3: Whatever I do with my life it will have something to do with writing. Most likely journalism or screenwriting. I'll definitely have a book published...everybody has a dream right?

Fact#4: Said book will probably be about vampires.

Fact#5: My friends mean everything to me. Messing with them means messing with me and the fangs come out when I get pissed. Just a tiny warning.

Fact#6: The said rule above applies to my family. No messy!

Fact#7: I love listening to music. Sorta explains this profile...

Fact#8: Johnny Depp is my all time favorite actor. He blows me away every time he walks onto the screen. My goal is to watch every single movie he ever starred in. My latest JD viewing: Public Enemies.

Fact#9: One day I will feel happy again.

Fact#10: I can write thousands of love poems, and romance novels but that doesn't mean I know what the heck I'm talking about.

Ah ten facts seems about good. Take care!
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gender
Female
relationship
Single
birthday
February 28, 1987
Network
city
Sandy Hook
state/country
US
 
 
Interests
clubs
"Katie Cave", "The Garage"
talents
writing, and being me :)
Entertainment
music
Within Temptation, Nightwish, Lacuna Coil, Evanescence, 30 Seconds to Mars, Bon Jovi, Kansas, Boston, Poets of the Fall, Kamelot...lots of other artists
artists
sharon from wt, along with amy lee, p!nk, and others
movies
underworld, day watch, any johnny depp film (there r lots) :)
tv shows
charmed, dark angel, chuck, my own worst enemy, terminator: the sarah conner chronicles, true blood...
actors
johnny depp!
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Sport/Activity
summer swimming, writing, tennis
Hobby
writing, hangin with friends
Book
1984, Animal Farm, Memory Keeper's Daughter, Maximum Ride 1-3, among others
TV Show
Dark Angel, Charmed...um pretty much it for the TV.
Favorite quote
"I win. I lose"- Chapter 2, Jade's POV
Looking for...
friends
Languages
I know English! I can speak a bit of French
Occupation
Baby sitter
Year
2010!
Hidden talent
I'm immortal
Movie
Underworld, Marie Antoinette, Sleepy Hollow, Pirates of the Carribbean 1-3, there are others
Studying
school!
Relationship status
single (yeah i know GASP)
Destination
LONDON! AND FRANCE!
Favorite holiday
Christmas

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Jul 31st, 12:02am
No Placebo. Too slow. They curse. No Coldplay. Too damn popular. Too slow. Not fun. And Silversun Pickups are slightly out of the picture. I'm considering using The Automatic though.
Jul 30th, 3:08am
I really only liked the second X-Men movie. that one and the first. That's about it. But I'm psyched, there's a Deadpool movie coming out and that ought to be good. Hopefully, there'll be one about Gambit. :) haha I haven't been on here really at all lately. Wow.
Jul 29th, 8:16pm
Can you think of any upbeat bands? Preferably British Pop. Think The Hoosiers or something like that. Check out my Booksie Profile if you want more information it's all there. But I thought it'd be cooler if I asked you on a MUSIC website. haha. You probably will have plenty of bands to list so I'll be waiting. :)

BTW I left another comment on your little--well big--poem on this website.

And haha...you used Worlds Apart. I love that song.
Jul 28th, 8:26pm
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Jul 26th, 9:40pm
you must be a strong girl to be able to lift all thoughs heavy books! :D
Jul 17th, 8:49pm
Thats not a bad job...i just do house matance like moving heavy objects not so much and planting... i doun't know