in my hallucination
I saw my beloveds flower garden
in my vertigo
in my dizziness
in my drunken haze
whirling and dancing like a spinning wheel
I saw myself as the source of existence

I was there in the beginning
and I was the spirit of love
now I am sober
there is only the hangover
and the memory of love
and only the sorrow
I yearn for happiness
I ask for help
I want mercy

i'm so tired of being suppressed by all my childish fears..

cocukca korkularim tarafindan bastirilmis halde bulunmaktan cok yoruldum.. and if you have to leave.. ve eger gitmek zorundaysan..

i wish that you would leave.. now..! gitmeni diliyorum.. simdi..!

'cause your presence still lingers here.. cunku senligin hala burada oyalaniyor..

it won't leave me alone.. beni yanliz birakmayacak..

and it won't leave me alone..! ve beni yanliz birakmayacak..!

these wounds won't seem to heal.. bu yaralar iyilesecek gibi gozukmuyor..

this pain is just too real.. bu aci cok fazla gercek..

there's just too much that time cannot erase..

zamanin silemedigi cok fazla sey var.. when you cried i'd wipe away all of your tears..

agladiginda.. tum gozyaslarini silerdim..

when you'd scream i'd fight away all of your fears..

ciglik attiginda.. tum korkularinla savasirdim..

i held your hand through all of these years..

tum bu yillar boyunca elini tuttum..

but you still have all of me..

fakat sen hala bana tamamen sahipsin.. you used to captivate me by your resonating light..

sen beni tinlayan isiginla buyulerdin..

now i'm bound by the life you left behind..

simdi geride biraktigin hayat tarafindan baglandim..

your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams..

yuzun.. benim bir zamanlar tatli olan ruyalarimi ziyaret ediyor..

your voice it chased away all the sanity in me..

sesin.. tum akil sagligimi kovaladi.. these wounds won't seem to heal.. bu yaralar iyilesecek gibi gozukmuyor..

this pain is just too real.. bu aci cok fazla gercek..

there's just too much that time cannot erase..

zamanin silemedigi cok fazla sey var.. i've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone..

kendime gittigini soylemek icin cok ugrastim ..

but though you're still with me..

ama hala benimle olmana ragmen..

i've been alone all along..

bastan beri yanlizim..

love is enough: though the world be a-waning,

and the woods have no voice but the voice of complaining,

though the skies be too dark for dim eyes to discover

the gold-cups and daisies fair blooming thereunder,

though the hills be held shadows, and the sea a dark wonder,

and this day draw a veil over all deeds passed over,

yet their hands shall not tremble, their feet shall not falter:

the void shall not weary, the fear shall not alter

these lips and these eyes of the loved and the lover.