Higinia - BlessTheFall
If you could stay here for just
a little bit, a little while, a little bit with me
you're what makes me,
and if god could keep you with me
I'd trade just about anything

You're what makes me want to change things
I would die just to live and yet we all live to die
You're what makes me want to change,
you will not die
you will not die
you will not die
you will not die

If you could stay here for just
a little bit, a little while, a little bit with me
you're what makes me,
and if god could keep you with me
I'd trade just about anything

I'd trade anything...

Take a step further back to where you belong
Take a look at your life what have you become

I never had the chance to explain myself
I never had the chance to apologize
I never had the chance to explain myself
I never had...

You will not die
You will not die
You will not die
You will not...

Some EMO hearts feel so lost, so sad, so incomplete....
but me? I'm not of them...because I'm totally dead!...
.....''NO HEART TO BE BROKEN''......
Thank you for killing me....

At the beginning we were best of friends.Everytime we spoke...
even in the depths of deppression...you made me smile...
Everytime your lips were moving and the air coming out of ur lungs fomrming into words
touched my ear drum....I could feel a heavy but warm serenity beat inside my heart...
Everytime I looked up at the sky...whishing u were here...
I smiled, waiting for you to meet me again.
Everytime I was alone, I wished that like a breeze you would come out of nowhere,
saving me from the heart stabbing loneliness...
Everytime the silence wrapped around my head, or boredom filled up inside me,
I would play the song in my head, the song... that u said reminded u of me...
...but...
...when months had passed that felt like years, you said you loved me...
but only...as your friend...
I smiled and said ok, but inside I was tearing apart...
my heart took quickly another form...
From this warm liquid something I can't explain...
to this dried up cold crisp...
I could feel this said and painful waves in my head, moving towards my eyes...
...they have now turned into this cold and lonely waterfall, inside this neverlasting winter forest...
They felt heavier and heavier, making harder to keep my head up...
Night after night, I cried and cried...
Day after day, I hided and hided...
not wanting 2 see the awful thruth blocking my way...
While I was sitting there, hiding from the world...I thought to myself...
Does anyone deserve to live?...
Is there a someone for everyone?...
Did she even know...
...how much I loved her?...
I stared at the floor wishing,
wishing that I should have opened my lips and told u the truth...
I said 2 myself...
...why...why didn't I say anything?.....why....
I took the key to my locker and held it against my wrist, moving it slowly down against my arm...
forcing it under my skinn as I bited my lip with tears in my eyes thinking...
...of what could've been....

I mad this blog 5th of may as I couldn't sleep and thought of you.....
...you know who you are...
it isn't like it really was, but it has the same feeling...

..when you have no friends...

..your parents are your enemies....

..and your partner has dumped you...

..where or who do you go to?...

.....I don't know why I'm showing this but still I do......

...your so happy you have forgotten all your bad memories....

...but you also forgot me.....

...does that mean....

...that I'm a bad memory for you?....

...was everything we did....

...just a burden for you....

...a rose...

...that has withered...

...but with thorns....

...still sharp enough to cut through your finger tipps...

...did it....

...did it hurt?...

...just existing, by my side?....

....why....

...why did it hurt....

...I'm always alone and have no one to talk to....

...I feel like I'm sitting in an empty and dark corner...

...not knowing where I am or what I should do....

...I'm not sitting in the corner because I want to.....

...but because no one has helped me out....

...by time I've turned into a nobody, a nuthin....

...that's why the corner is still empty...

...it's an emptycorner...