After all this months, all i can say is...

Life's been good...
Love is good...
Cash is good...

Almost all that i've wanted before are now mine.

Glay Log,
Star Date 6767967(hehehe)

Its been my 5th day on the nite shift with out rest..
feels awesome...high...would be a really good word.
The nites have always given me a peace of mind as well as a kind of acceptence.
It doesnt resent me, doesnt judge me, doesnt redicule me,...
Not like the days...
On the sidelines about work....IM RICH AGAIN BITCHES!!!!!!
yeap cash came in...hehehehe


Band's going good...no...make that fuckin great...
we'r tightening up so quickly...cant wait for the fuckin auditions..
Minds WILL BE BLOWN!!!!
We'r heading to laudry bar later to watch a gig \m/...i seriously hope it would be worth the effort.
It would be a good time to talk about a band name

The breast cancer thing got scraped coz i dont below to UTAR lolx...which is ok...
more time on my hands...

Ill be Internetless for sometime till my 2mb kicks in...
Damn 2mb...SWWWWWWWWWWWEEEETTTTTt...meaning fast porno, lots of porno, and just plain porno flood :D...

My Emotional condition has worsen...its getting even more harder to process emotions now...i seem to be only acting out of good faith, being nice coz its the rite thing to do.....so...i wonder..is this wat's dieing feels like?...

End of LOG

After a long absense....
I return to my sanctuary...
with a trouble mind...
a heavy heart...

since time has passed, many things have changed..

with some of the most bitter-sweet experiance still fresh in my mind...
i return to log my tales...

Jamfest 2008 was one of the most awesome experiance i've ever had...
The hardest event to emcee, but yet the most fulfilling one...
My next job would be for the Breast Cancer Awareness Campaign in UTAR next week 29/10
Wonder how that will turn out..

My band has come full circle...we are tightening ourselves by the week...and nth is stoping us...
Our first Debut will be for the Soul of Music (Jrock Kingdom 5) audition in mid december and i for one am FUCKING READY TO KICK SUM ASS!!!
Ofcourse without question Glay will ALWAYS be on the menu....(FUCK U LARC!!! U SUCK!!!!...and im glad i can finally say that without holding back...)
Track list would prolly be Verb, I Love You wo Sagashiteru, Yuuwaku, Rock n' Roll Swindle and prolly Mermaid...but im not sure just as yet...Im hoping to do a bit of Maximum the Hormones and Detroit Metal City..(SATSUGAI!!!!!!!!!) but...lets see how things work out...

Next up, Im now a contract employee of Hewlett-Packard :D...
Im now a Level 1 Server Support Engineer and im getting paid pretty ok..
PLUS im also taken cared off very well too...
oh...im bloging at work btw..hehehe..\m/...
Work environment is good...i really do love it here...

Road Trippin wise...Was at Pulau Ketam (Crab Island) a couple of weeks back...
Ate so much seafood till i could talk to the fishes..:P...
Then i just got back from Penang yesterday...hehehe
The sea breeze...o how i miss the sea breeze and the smell of the beach...
I had the oppertunity to see a good friend tie the knot...it was a splendid shindig indeed...
Im scheduled to make a trip back there somewhere next month...i hope...

But the trip which i must make as a high priority is ofcourse the Bangkok Trip...
Where I pay my homage to the Jrock Gods ..X JAPAN...
Im still fucking waiting for the damn ticket price...its got to be out soon...


Emotional wise...I am fucked....
I am so fucked that my emotional state doesnt matter to me anymore...
Love, Hate, Kineship, Sence of Belonging and all the fucked up shit that a human would rasionalize as feelings mean nth to me anymore...
With that comes the Emotional attachment towords ppl...
so far, frens, close frens, ppl who are there for me, ppl who respect me and cherish me for who i am...are safe...
As i still feel for them...no matter the circumstances...and no matter the state of my emotions,...
they dont deserve crap from me...and cant afford to loose them....

Im tired of the same of story ...where i hear the words "its alrite u'll find some one" coz it is not true...
Im tired of the words "hang in there she'll come around" coz there is no such thing for me...
Im tired of falling for sumone and ALWAYS getting turned down coz of my skin color...
Im tired of falling for sumone and ALWAYS loosing her to someone lesser then i am...

And coz off this shit...Im about to come to a very dire standing...
but im waiting for a few things to clear up, so that when i apply my decision i will not folter and i will not fail..
nevermore never again...
May the Lord have Mercy on me...coz He's the only one who can...