Forever in my heart, screw the "til death do us part"

The pain of searching for you and missing you suddenly disappeared...for you have once again appeared in my life.

Though people can push us away from each other, force us to leave each other... our heart will always be linked. We will find each other again... as it is destined to be.... my love....

Lets face the world together, as we always have.

Slow down and think of now, of this moment, lets treasure this precious moment. Though we may one day be apart in distance, we will still be together in heart, mind, and soul. I will search for you no matter how long it takes...

This is a poem that i have once wrote, i made a few changes ( i forgot them xP ) . but right now, it feels like this doesnt seem so bad. even if i say it out loud, i wouldnt seem like i was lying.

Whenever you're gone i seem to be all alone,
My body turns to stone.
The pain reaches beyond the ceiling,
And I don't know why it isn't healing,
My heart is aching so much to tell you,
I love you.

When i finally found the courage to tell you,
It was already too late.
After that day my beautiful sky can never again be blue.
It seems i wasnt nice to fate,
I mean you have already found your love.
I dont know... i just want to cry.

I was such a fool,
I wasnt even cool.
But without you, i felt smaller than a piece of grain.
As i break this chain,
You will also fade.
But my love for you just wont change...

When the time came for me to choose between love and hate. i chose love. i thought long and hard... "hmm what is love like? will my heart beat s
uper duper fast? " I couldnt find anyone that gave me such a feeling. I was giving up....i was about to turn to hate. Then i met you. Changing me in so many ways. i was happy. for once.. i was happy and felt like i can finally be with someone that i can share.... ANYTHING with.... Love didnt feel so bad, at least thats what i thought at first. We always spent time together having fun, you and i... i couldnt believe i would ever be able to be so..... alive! Then you suddenly told me you were going to move away. I never thought that was even possible. Every part of me said "dont go... "

On the day of your departure, i accompanied you to the airport. giving you one last hug. I asked you why you had to leave.

you told me "my mom needs urgent medical treatment. i promise i will come back."

Hearing that i felt like i can continue on. I said my goodbye to you and auntie. after walking out of the airport, i realize i left my bag inside. i walked back in and what i saw... i... it was probably just me. i walked up and hid around the corner.

"He finally left. thanks mom, you can leave now. sorry for making up such a bad lie. Lets go on a vacation _____(name of... ..), " you said.

i kept denying and thought you were talking about someone esle.

_____ said, "you promised him you will come back??" I still denied it...

you said, " did you not hear me? its just a lie to get rid of him. At first my friends dared me to make friends with losers like him. So i did, but he got attached to me. Had to get rid of him somehow."

i...i...couldnt deny it anymore...

_____ said, "hahaha, you are quite the devil. oh well, i am guessing the idiot will be waiting for you for a long time. maybe forever since you said you would come back. I feel a little sorry for him."

you said, " really? you really do?"

_____ said, "your kidding right? of course not! lets go" puts his hand around her shoulder and they left.

I went outside. I stood there... i didnt know what to feel. i looked up at the sky... it looked so peaceful... then i felt a drop on my face. It started to rain... But why were the drops warm? ahh... i was crying. how did i not realize. I ask the sky, "Why are you crying? dont worry beautiful sky, today i will cry with you. lets both wash these painful feelings away."

For a while i cried. i thought for a while about hating people and especially hating love. But i never wanted to hate. it would make me no different than her...

....I wonder how she is doing...

Everyday, seeing you, i feel overjoyed to be living. Your smile, your laughs, and everything esle about you. I always wanted to just charge at you and hold you tightly, but i can never find the right time to do it or the courage. walkin up to you, i feel speechless. when i dont see you, i have so much to say. shouldnt it be a good feeling to love...? So why is it so painful? my heart just feels so uneasy. as if the smallest movement could shatter it. Why is it so hard to get your attention. or maybe this is just not meant to be. i want to let you go, but i dont want to miss you. though i say that, i have no other choice. your interest is in a jock that can never make you happy. There is just nothing i can do. if we were meant to be together, someday i will see you again. if not, i hope you will meet a person that will complete you. farewell.