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blog post HOW is ME?
Posted in out of myself on Jul 31, 2008 at 10:03 AM
Current mood: frustrated

i don't know..
im kinda bored but im smiling at funny pics and comments i see on the internet.
i think the dilemma is that i want to go home coz im bored here
but at home, it's boring too.
i'll be talking to the television.. here i'm talking to the computer.
haha. this is the blog of a boring person. be bored.
i think it's bad that i depended my happiness so much on my friends in college
now we seem to have separate lives as we grow older
it started when we graduated
then have jobs
then my bestfriend got married
others soon follow
and i don't know how to find my happiness again.
i'm happy for them but
it kinda make me feel like i'm floating on mid-air
watching people below enjoying their own lives
while i hang and i don't know what i hold on too
maybe my job, or my family,
or my life..
like i have to move on since i'm not yet dead.
i know its pathetic
then i lost a treasured friend
now i think that's when i started to really feel pathetic
i do not deny that im so sad
deep inside
and i think it shows
and i'm living it everyday
like i'm in a depressed state.
that's why i always feel bored now..
i'm not happy with my job
i'm not happy with how much i earn
i'm not happy being loveless
i'm not happy seeing my lost friend everyday while i still feel the guilt of not trusting her
i'm not happy of my physique
i'm not happy with my faith
i'm struggling and i don't know if i can win this depression.
i think im not the only one.


blog post real love
Posted in lyrics on Jun 12, 2008 at 4:07 PM
Current mood: emo



blog post Low low low in ROCK
Posted in rock on May 24, 2008 at 9:32 AM
Current mood: rad


blog post Online Friendship
Posted in inside ur mind on Feb 06, 2008 at 8:49 AM
Current mood: relaxed

josh erwin my ka-friendster wrote:
Online Friendship



Online friend I have never seen you before,
but I know you are really there.
I click you into reality, like magic in the air.
Your voice is like an angel, though I really do not hear.
Your hug as warm as any, of the loved ones I hold dear.
You are always there for comfort, or a word of cheer.
Though you are very far away, I always have you near.
You are a very special friend, like none I have ever known.
As long as you are in cyberspace, I will never be alone.


blog post im so loving it
Posted in like i care.. blah blahs on Jan 17, 2008 at 8:58 AM
Current mood: optimistic
i used to be in Multiply but eversince it was blocked in our office, i cannot visit there as much as i wanted to.. but this site is just like multiply.. only other people cannot save the uploaded music to their PC but can only add it to their playlist. isn't that safe? but i am still to get to know the glitches of this site like maybe that 30 sec music. that suck, but i think its just fair for the music industry. blah blah. but im so loving this site. muah muah


blog post hehe! i am bart simpson. get out of my way.
Posted in tests on Jan 16, 2008 at 8:52 AM
Current mood: silly




You Are Bart Simpson







Very misunderstood, most people just dismiss you as "trouble." Little do they know that you're wise and well accomplished beyond your years.


You will be remembered for: starring in your own TV show and saving the town from a comet.

Your life philosophy: "I don't know why I did it, I don't know why I enjoyed it, and I don't know why I'll do it again!"






blog post VIRGO - astrological view of me
Posted in astrology on Jan 16, 2008 at 8:43 AM
Current mood: weird

Virgo the Virgin


Virgo the Virgin, an earth sign, is the sixth sign of the tropical zodiac. The Sun on his annual journey shines in Virgo between Aug 22 and Sep 21, though it can vary depending on the year. The Sun in astrology stands for our inner nature, the stamp of our true character.


A mutable (fluid and changeable) sign, Virgo governs critical analysis, intellectual subtlety and service. Virgo people are inclined to be practical and industrious, yet adaptable, with a remarkable eye for detail. Virgo is an intellectual and discriminating feminine sign ruled by the magical trickster Mercury, the messenger of the gods.


The emblem of Virgo, a virgin holding sheaves of wheat in her hands, symbolizes wisdom, garnered in the fields of experience. Like the true virgin, most Virgos are shy and, like a virgin waiting to give herself to the perfect lover, Virgo is also idealistic.


Disappointment, however, can harden you into a cynic and a skeptic. Virgo consequently becomes quite critical with self as well as circumstances, due to the effect of such disappointments on a sensitive and discriminating nature.


The planet Mercury, governing our intellect and communicative faculties, rules Virgo, where tradition also places the house of its exaltation, so Virgins have a truly intellectual, critical and analytical approach to life. Communication is important and you love books, magazines, and writing.


A Critical Eye


A critical eye for detail, combined with your ceaseless pursuit of perfection, endows you with an irresistible urge to improve everything and everyone (whether they need it or not!). Service-oriented Virgo seeks to improve the environment, by pursuing careers in health-related fields, or in other structured areas such as teaching, labor relations, or counseling. Intensely personal situations can be somewhat inhibiting, but other circumstances can produce a very dynamic Virgo indeed. Hmmm.


Although you often have altruistic motives in helping others, you do have a teensy tendency to act the martyr when your offerings are ignored. It is not unheard of for you to use guilt as a weapon. Helping others to improve is one thing, my dears, but pushing them toward goals of perfection they cannot hope to accomplish is quite destructive, as well as impossible.


Health Conscious


Health-conscious Virgo makes an effort to stay physically fit and you don't mind repetitive exercise routines, if you can see achievable outcomes. You enjoy tennis, racquetball, swimming, sailing, fishing, and biking, even though athletically you are not overly competitive. It's just that you always seek to perfect whatever skills you may have, primarily for the sake of doing a thing well. Talented in various crafts, dressmaking and designing, you may also take a particular interest in such things as cartography, travel, and philately.


Virgo rules the sinuses, respiratory system, and bowels. Colds, flu, allergies, problems with intestines and constipation are common Virgo complaints. You are also subject to black moods and despondency from time to time, which can adversely affect others in your vicinity.


Your colours are blue, yellow, grey, tan, navy, and lilac and your birthstone is the sapphire, a variety of corundum. This gem was considered by ancient societies to be a love charm. Though they come in a variety of colors and can even be transparent, the most valuable sapphires are blue. Blue is also the principal color associated with Virgo. Flowers and plants for Virgo include the aster, chrysanthemum, ivy, and fern.



VIRGO IN RELATIONSHIPS



Virgo, a feminine sign, is fastidious, practical and realistic rather than romantic. Flexible Virgo, a mutable sign, readily adapts to change. Instinctively responsive to the needs of others, you readily adapt to different people and changing circumstances by finding ways to make yourself useful. When the spotlight is not aimed directly at you, but on a product or a service you offer, you make an excellent salesperson, or effective negotiator and can be a good manager, though you should avoid being too critical of those who cannot match your high personal standards.

Now some Virgoans are not above using an inability to achieve perfection as the excuse for their own idleness and unproductiveness. Tut, tut. This is out of character with your true nature. Sloppy, disorganized, and irresponsible is not the Virgoan Way.

Moreover, your own bad habits do not in the least inhibit you from criticizing others for the same behavior. Your analytical ability makes you an excellent critic of the talent and performance of those more skilled than yourself. Whatever you do needs to be of a practical and helpful nature; you need not wallow in self-criticism because you yourself fail to meet those same unrealistic standards.

In the art of lovemaking, Virgo is a slow-burning fuse that, once properly ignited, leads to an explosion of white heat which takes quite a while to cool down.

You are however very fastidious and critical of the personal habits of others, which can be a big turn-off and prevent you from achieving a fulfilling relationship, or even participating at all in the messy business of involvement.

Able to talk your way into or out of anything, you are generally perceived to be quite witty and entertaining, if a tad too critical and prone to hypochondria. You are unwilling to discuss your innermost feelings with anyone save a very trusted confidante, so anyone who wishes to get to know you deeply must be prepared to persevere, in which case you will prove a lifelong friend and ally, who can reach great heights of sexual attainment.

VIRGO SEXUALITY


Your sexuality is delicate and fastidious. The way to your heart is through your head. While you can intellectually assent to any number of unusual or unorthodox views and positions on any number of subjects, in practice you are pretty conservative and hard-headed when it comes to relationships, particularly when sex is involved. You can easily become cynical.


You are not the most highly sexed sign of the zodiac, but you are perhaps the most intellectual. At the same time, being an Earth Sign, ruled by the planet Mercury (the messenger of the gods and the ruler of intellect and communication), you like to keep a critical eye on the proceedings with a view to not letting things get out of hand. You will experiment with a good grace, especially if convinced that you can trust your partner not to make too much of a mess, or leave things in total disarray, but basically you prefer a more refined form of sexual relationship, wherein sex has its place (in the bedroom) and decorum rules.

A meeting of minds is what you really prefer, although this is not to say that you never get horny. The more adventurous amongst you will throw caution to the winds for a while as you sow your oats, but will invariably need to return to your own ordered spaces to consider and categorize the experience.

Admirers must realize that Virgo can be quite spectacularly moody and may lash out with a sharp tongue if an affront be perceived, but can be assured that if they are well-presented and trustworthy, you will respond well to the slow but steady approach.

In the art of lovemaking, you present a slow-burning fuse that, once properly lit, ignites an explosion of white heat which can take a while to cool down. Moreover, you can be a devoted and caring partner for someone with whom you feel an intellectual rapport and whose mind you respect.

VIRGO RISING


Virgo Rising has the ability to adapt to changing circumstances and different people. Your willingness to adapt however, is invariably accompanied by a word or two of complaint. Nowhere is the critical facility associated with Virgo more observable than when this sign rules the Ascendant.


Always seeking perfection, you find it difficult to accept situations or people as they are. You must learn to be more sensitive, my dear, and restrict your passion for constantly finding fault, for even well-meaning criticism can be hurtful and badly received. Practicality and conservatism feature strongly in your personality. While you do not favor flamboyant displays of affection and can even present an excessively puritanical facade in public, you can nevertheless be quite sensual and sexually-oriented in private.

You can be totally organized and attentive to details in some areas, while at the same time be appallingly disorganized and sloppy in other areas. How confusing. How contrary! You are health conscious to the point of obsession and should your natal sun or moon be in one of the Water signs (Cancer, Scorpio, or Pisces) or in Capricorn (which tends toward excessive worry), this concern with health can develop into severe hypochondria.

Ruled by Mercury, the messenger of the gods, you are extremely talkative and prone to gossip. Endlessly curious about everything that goes on in your immediate environment, at times you seem to be everywhere at once. Ideas and projects to take up every waking moment. The knack for collecting and communicating your ideas and information effortlessly attracts information and news from everyone else as well. You readily absorb stores of information which you are happy to share with anyone who takes the time to listen.

Virgo rising gives a talent for communication and attention to detail that makes super salesmen, efficient negotiators, and eager travelers. You like to keep busy and useful. You are nosy, so you would make a great researcher or journalist. Sitting around doing nothing makes you nervous and irritable, but you enjoy collecting such things as recipes, postage stamps, or medical remedies. Respiratory illnesses, nervousness, and allergies are apt to be common physical complaints.



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