Win Some. Lose Some. Part Deux.
Posted in Lungkot Ever on May 12, 2009 at 11:22 PM
Current Mood: frustrated
I knew right from the start that this is just temporary. Well woe to me ~ I have immersed myself to being Mr. Fix-It-All and I am confusedly hurt. Confusedly Hurt? I don't know if there even is such an adjective to describe how I feel.
I am trying to process my emotions while putting up a straight face and showing everyone like there's nothing wrong. I am hurt, dammit. And yet I have accepted it. See how confuse poor little me is?
There's just too many loose ends that needs tying up and too many questions that needs some answers.
I will just go with the flow.
In the meantime, I will enjoy my winnings from our goalbuster incentive.
Let's go shop.
All About Me
Posted in Ganda Ever! on Dec 28, 2008 at 11:53 PM
Current Mood: fabulous
All about you
• name: Orman
• nickname: Orman, Orms, Mamu, Poknat, Bi, GF, Bes
• birthday: September 28
• school: University of San Carlos, Cebu City
• course: Commerce graduate - Accounting major
• ambition: Maging maayos ang buhay hanggang sa pagtanda
• hobbies: Mahilig akong magdownload ng movies and music sa torrent sites
• music: Basta hindi masakit sa tenga, oks na ako.
• singers: Madami pero pinakagusto ko si Dionne Warwick
• movies: Madami din but my favorite movie is The Changeling
• celebrities: Nora Aunor is my idol forever and ever, alleluia, amen!
• t.v. programs: Oprah dati pero ngayon si Ellen G. na!
• cartoon character: fave ko si Garfield kasi sya may sabi: "i may be fat but you're ugly and i can always go on a diet!" laban kayo dyan?
• colors: yellow! dark yellow! seloso ako eh...
• books: fave ko noon pa si Stephen King - kumpleto ako ng books nya... latest nyang lima di ko pa nabasa!
• sports: Badminton! Gusto ko uling mag-badminton!!!
• expression: Tarush! Baklush! Babush! (dati: babu! shabu! lababu!)
• best friends: Secret! Baka may magtampo! You know who you all are...
• motto: If others can do it....DON'T HELP! nyahahahahhaa!
• first kiss: Sa lips... di ko na maalala! brown-out noon!
• the most "nakakalokang intriga": buntis daw ako! hehehehe!
Heart to heart!
• describe yourself: maarte ako. mabait ako. mataray ako. nanay-nanayan ako. gets mo?
• define love: life is difficult and men are cruel!
• what is a friend?: ang kaibigan ang tanging taong magsasabing mabaho ang hininga mo!
• who is your crush?: dito sa imeem? too many to mention...
• describe your loved one: Sobrang pinkish, dako and suplado...pero sobrang love ko!
• where & when did you meet?: secret
• what attracted you most?: supladito ang dating and cute sya.
• unforgettable date & place: nung we laid my mom to rest...haayyyzzz...
• who was your first kiss?: parents ko siempre...
• happiest moment: right now ... na-exceed ko ang quota ko...
• embarrasing moment: tumalsik ang jacket ng ngipin ko while presiding a meeting! nyahahaha!
• your future plans: be happy. 
Trouble in Paradise
Posted in What Ever! on Dec 11, 2008 at 9:41 PM
Current Mood: clueless
Familiarity breeds contempt. I hate this feeling. This ogre of a feeling is driving me nuts. The discoveries albeit small are making me take a back step and view things in a wider perspective. The season is not helping me a bit. The bitch in me is trying to break free. I don’t know how long I can reign it in. Relationships are difficult. And a May-December affair is never a bed of roses. But who said love is easy? Whew! And I thought I have bended so far back that I don’t even recognize my reflection. Let’s see how things are going to progress. Trouble in paradise? Let’s just say it’s a spice of life.
Akala Ko...
Posted in Lungkot Ever on Nov 26, 2008 at 3:56 PM
Current Mood: angry
Akala ko ikaw na.
Akala ko iba ka.
Akala ko sapat na.
Akala ko tama ka.
Akala ko tama ako.
Akala ko masaya na.
Akala ko magtatagal pa.
Akala ko bangungot lang.
Akala ko biro lang.
Tutuo na pala.
Think of Me
Posted in Lungkot Ever on Nov 03, 2008 at 5:37 PM
Current Mood: emo
Think of me, think of me fondly,
when we've said goodbye.
Remember me once in a while -
please promise me you'll try.
When you find that, once again, you long
to take your heart back and be free -
if you ever find a moment,
spare a thought for me
We never said our love was evergreen,
or as unchanging as the sea -
but if you can still remember
stop and think of me . . .
Think of all the things
we've shared and seen -
don't think about the things
which might have been . . .
Think of me, think of me waking,
silent and resigned.
Imagine me, trying too hard
to put you from my mind.
Recall those days
look back on all those times,
think of the things we'll never do -
there will never be a day,
when I won't think of you . . .
Think of me,
Please say you'll think of me
Whatever I should choose to do
There will never be a day
When i won't think of you...
...never be a day when i will never think of you...
Sulat ni Nanay at Tatay
Posted in Lungkot Ever on Oct 21, 2008 at 4:06 AM
Current Mood: sad
Just want to share this wonderful article written by Rev. Fr. Ariel F. Robles, a CWL Spiritual Director of St. Augustine Church in Baliuag, Bulacan. Naiyak talaga ako each time I read this.
“Sa aking pagtanda, unawain mo sana ako at pagpasensiyahan. Kapag dala ng kalabuan ng mata ay nakabasag ako ng pinggan o nakatapon ng sabaw sa hapag-kainan, huwag mo sana akong kagagalitan. Maramdamin ang isang matanda. Nagse-self-pity ako tuwing sisigawan mo ako.
Kapag mahina na ang tenga ko at hindi ko maintindihan ang sinasabi mo, huwag mo naman sana akong sabihan ng bingi, pakiulit na lang ang sinabi mo o pakisulat na lang. Pasensya ka na, anak. Matanda na talaga ako.
Kapag mahina na ang tuhod ko, pagtiyagaan mo sana akong tulungang tumayo, katulad ng pag-aalalay ko sa iyo noong nag-aaral ka pa lamang lumakad.
Pagpasensyahan mo sana ako kung ako man ay nagiging makulit at paulit-ulit na parang sirang-plaka. Basta pakinggan mo na lang ako. Huwag mo sana akong pagtatawanan o pagsasawaang pakinggan. Natatandaan mo anak noong bata ka pa? Kapag gusto mo ng lobo, paulit-ulit mo ‘yung sasabihin, maghapon kang mangungulit hanggang hindi mo nakukuha ang gusto mo. Pinagtiyagaan ko ang kakulitan mo.
Pagpasensiyahan mo na rin sana ang aking amoy. Amoy-matanda, amoy-lupa. Huwag mo sana akong piliting maligo. Mahina na ang katawan ko. Madaling magkasakit kapag nalamigan, huwag mo sana akong pandirihan. Natatandaan mo noong bata ka pa? Pinagtiyagaan kitang habulin sa ilalim ng kama kapag ayaw mong maligo.
Pagpasensiyahan mo sana kung madalas, ako’y masungit, dala na marahil ito ng katandaan. Pagtanda mo, maiintindihan mo rin ako.
Kapag may konti kang panahon, magkuwentuhan naman tayo, kahit sandali lang, inip na ako sa bahay, maghapong nag-iisa. Walang kausap. Alam kong busy ka sa trabaho.
Subalit nais kong malaman mo na sabik na sabik na akong makakuwentuhan ka, kahit alam kong hindi ka interesado sa mga kuwento ko. Natatandaan mo anak, noong bata ka pa? Pinagtiyagaan kong pakinggan at intindihin ang pautal-utal mong kuwento tungkol sa iyong teddy bear.
At kapag dumating ang sandali na ako’y magkasakit at maratay sa banig ng karamdaman, huwag mo sana akong pagsawaang alagaan. Pagpasensiyahan mo na sana kung ako man ay maihi o madumi sa higaan, pagtiyagaan mo sana akong alagaan sa mga huling sandali ng aking buhay. Tutal hindi na naman ako magtatagal.
Kapag dumating ang sandali ng aking pagpanaw, hawakan mo sana ang aking kamay at bigyan mo ako ng lakas ng loob na harapin ang kamatayan.
At huwag kang mag-alala, kapag kaharap ko na ang Diyos na lumikha, ibubulong ko sa kanya na pagpalain ka sana … dahil naging mapagmahal ka sa iyong ama’t ina…”
I love...
Posted in love actually on Oct 12, 2008 at 10:42 AM
Current Mood: fabulous
I love the way you laugh,
I love the way you smile,
You have a way of warming up a room
With your beauty, wit, and style
I love to hear your voice,
I love to hear you sing,
Your heart can turn a simple song
Into such a magic thing
I love the way you give a hug,
I love the way you kiss,
The passion in your lips
Fills my heart with joy and bliss
I love to have you in my arms,
I love to hold you tight,
I love to listen to you breathe
As I hold you through the night
I love you every moment,
I've loved you from the start
And fill my open heart
nakakapagod.
Posted in Bugbog Ever on Sep 24, 2008 at 7:23 AM
Current Mood: frustrated
pagod na pagod na ako. kelan kaya darating ang panahon na ako naman ang inaasikaso. palagi na lang ako ang nagbibigay. palagi na lang ako ang umuunawa. nakakapagod.
nagkaroon nga ako ng pagkakataon para sumaya. nagulo pa. ang dati kong tahimik na buhay naging masalimuot. palagi na lang ako ang nagbibigay. palagi na lang ako ang umuunawa. nakakapagod.
sana dumating ang sandali ko. na ako naman. yung hindi na ako pagod. yung tunay na akong masaya. yung nakangiti na ako.
kelan pa kaya?
