There is little you need to know about me...
I'm sarcastic and bitter
I'm like living, breathing surrealism
I'll leave you confused
Perhaps a little disturbed
Sometimes englightened
Sometimes afraid
Sometimes in pain...
I don't make sense
And I doubt I ever will
And I'll paint these white walls red with blood
And color the universe in black
Until the end of all things
But never ask me to change
Because it isn't possible
And even if it was
It would never happen
So if you don't crave FEAR
If you don't desire the TWISTED and the PAINFUL
If you don't live and breathe the STRANGE
...turn and walk away...
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I have agoraphobia, a disorder that doesn't allow me to leave my house without panic and fear. Some say it has affected my personality. They say it has blinded me from the world. But, little do they know, I do not want to see the world anymore. I have learned in my young years that it is a cruel, unfeeling place. A place that I want nothing to do with.
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So here's the semi-short version. Who am I? I'm just another hideous creature on this disgusting planet. I follow my own path--a path where religion does not exist, where my morbid fancy is just the usual news, where blood is the new tea, where black is the new pink, where pale is beautiful and darkness is warmer than sunlight. If you can't handle that, again--turn around and leave. I dance to the melody of a broken music box. I sleep with the dead and walk unseen amongst the living. I collect swords as a hobby and carry a switchblade to a public school (shh, don't tell). I set fires in my yard and dance around them to the sound of a haunting music box. I've been talking to spirits in my basement since I was eight years old. If that creeps you out--again, turn around and leave.
You can call me a 'goth'. You can call me a 'freak'. I don't care. I know it's all true. You can love me or you can hate me, and i will not care a bit. When all fails, I know that one person still loves me--and he is enough. But I don't believe in stereotypes. We are the way we are, and a title does not change that. And if you don't agree with me--
once more...
TURN AROUND AND LEAVE.
I am PATHETIC.
I am HIDEOUS.
I am USELESS.
I am HOPELESS.
I deserve PAIN.
I deserve DEATH.
I deserve ANGUISH.
And I have accepted that.
But if you disagree, once more--
--TURN AND WALK THE FUCK AWAY.
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And I will keep things the way they are.
Until the universe ends...
Until the world is swallowed in blackness...
Until my xDARKEST DREAMx has become reality.
My masterpiece...
...my dark world...
...my heaven...