am i strong ?
im just projecting
coz i must...
need to do that
for the sake of people i care much...

i am not saint neither...
but im trying to be
in some sort way
that i knew best how
...sacrificing...

am i afraid.. ?
too much.. its tearing me apart
but im used to such
even i feel like crying
my tears are all dried up..

how wonderful to be under control
by the power of the mind
!!..u seems so unbeatable..!!

is loving worth a risk ?
thou you know sometimes it stink...
would you still utter i love you ?
thou you know he might not feel same too..
should i conceal what i feel ?...
or tell it for real...
think i would say Yes
what ever consequence it might bring.

love is a complicated word
that needed to be comprehend...
got to experienced it
to understand it in the end.

wish to own you.. touch and kiss you.
like a slave in her master quarter
willing to obey your every order.

people may mocked me for being such a fool..
but no one can blame nor dictate me
and set a rule...
for i might look like a dumb on your sight
i'm still the master of my heart...

love is nothing if you do not share !!!

cruel,grudge,rude and dumb..
fraud,cold,idiot and bold...
insensitive,deceitful,unfaithful
and ungrateful...
demanding,insecure,out dated type...
a garbage, junk, spoiled, a brat...
a maggot, faggot, with mouth sounds
like a parrot..
a piece of shit you picked from the trash.

a human without a heart..
with a plastic sense of touch.
a person with a kiss as bitter as
the most rawest stuff.
a being with a brain small
as a peas,
lowest creature than you ever
lay your eyes at...

funny to think how fate could give.
the one you used to loved...
the one you once gave up your whole life
is the one youre condemning, mockering,
insulting indisgust...
that how you feel after romance...
and thats what we call foolish heart!!!

When love failed whom we should put the blame?
Is love had to be one side love affair?
Is forgetting really easy
just one snap of a finger everything will be free?
How can u called it love
without understanding, respect and trust?

Is saying I love you really that easy
without feeling much from the heart?
I thought having you would finally makes me complete...
But I'm too fool to believe everything that you said and did.
I prefer to be alone rather than be hurt once more.

Now I'm worst than ever before.....
Thanks to you my life is miserable!!!

life is like a delicacy..
that sometimes we got so used to food that we usually eat
that mere scent
our brains started to ignore it..
love is like a fad...
it comes and goes...
wer so indulge at the moment and
tomorrow babush sayo!!
learning to have a proper timing is a must
be wise in investing
from material thing to romance..
a model cellphone..
sooner will be obsolete
thus we just unwisely spent our money..
but money can be earn , can invest
and most likely to be doubled as time goes..
but investing feelings is risky
some wins but mostly others ended
sorry :-P...ouchh!!
patient is a virtue..
be discrete and sensible..
incase you presume you found the one you looking
for.. remember its yours longing that been answered
how about the other involve..
is he/ she on search same as you do..?
not because you love someone it doesnt mean
he/ she is oblige to feel the same.. vice versa..
accepting defeat is a torturing act to do
specially to proudy people who expecting much..
positive thinking is a must
but remember
the principle of relativity...
school of life is hardest education we can ever attained
graduating from it means.. 6 feet below the ground ..
but like any ordinary school we entered..
theres who graduated with flying color..
and other flunk..
lets just learn to treasure and enjoy things
while it last... grab the chances
and never tun your back in taking a risk
remember we would never know the out come unless
we try ..
we will just end up wondering what if and whats that..
nothing last for life time..
we out grow things we used to like..
but it would be pleasing to imagine
during the dawn period of our life
as we look back
there are trace of past worth smiling at...

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im sermoning myself ryt now lol.. wtf
lesson can be learn in hard way... toinkz

theres always 2 sides in a story
lets stop prejudging each other
learn to Listen...
Forgive...
Forget...
and Compromise...
theres no hard heart
that cant be melted by soft spoken words
humility wont betray you...
lets step down once in a while
on our pedestal that causes barriers...
theres no way we can get everything we want
life is unfair from the very start
its up to us to adjust and make it fair enough...
not only for ourselves
but to other people who like us
somehow feeling same as we does...
lets try to help one another to patch up
those gaps that are missing in our lives...

-=G()D Bless Us All=-

funny to realize people have no complete contentment
and sadly speaking im one of them ..
fortunately for me theres few who still stick
and who accept and takes me as i am..
understand my mood swing and my eruptive foul mouth..
advantage for my side but opposite for them..
im dragging innocent being to my own pit of attitude problem..
yes im 99% sure im driving them away...
im not wondering by end i got none to say..
sarcastically speaking im doin a okey!!!
go or stay doesnt matter... i hate to care...
with much confident want to share im proud of what/who i am..
and how i make someone changed
but still as always im aint sure of myself..
just plainly letting the course run by itself..
just laughing out loud to things happening into my life
but know what ...
with every experience ive got no matter the end was..
one thing still remain the same ..
i still end up wisphering
i dont need a lover nor guardian to manage my affair..
all i need is...
a real friend who listen and genuinely care ...

~N!X~

having an idea but cant express..
out pouring love but no one to share...
wealth than cant spend..
tounge that cant speak..
hands numb to do some action..
brain to idle to function..
eyes that can read without comprehension..
people on seach but doesnt know compassion..
people who know some but fail to give
happy people who doesnt recognize fun..
people afraid to meddle for all the hell they care..
selfish people who live alone in their shell...
people who complain much but never reaches satisfaction..
blessed people but dont know gratification..

haterz beset haterz...
so as love makes love...