Well, this story doesn't sound good for the first time, I was not happy nor angry, and being sad was never in my list of "to tell" in blogs. Something just happened to me that I thought it was the thing I've been looking for. Finding a special person to cure what was left of your heart. But ll I expect was nothing.. but hurt. I'm not asking for attention, nor asking someone t help me overcome this, I just wanna let it out in a simple happening of my life, that's become to this. Loosing someone you treated as important, you love, you've given it emotion.. you learned how to love, whether it's a person or a thing.. an animal, a plant, objects. A house, a job.. Nothing in this world is permanent.. So is love not permanent when the opposite side thinks you've change? Do you think love accepts all facts and secrets behind you?

If all things can be revealed before you tried testing it. if only you will know the outcome it's up to you to pursue it or not. If only... In case you've been feeling the writers feeling now, It must be painful, telling it like this can help it ease a little, and make you less lunatic. *chuckles* It frustrating, like when you're a kid and there's this toy that you love to buy.. and you would like your parents to buy it for you, but they answer no. When it comes to love to another person, and he says no, It kinda rages your whole body and you feel numb and whatever. It's not healthy to be like this, But what can.. I.. do?