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Name: Jonuel Toledo
Nickname: Jon, Ba, Boy, Uncle Fag
Age: 21
Height: 6'1
Weight: 220 lbs
Interests: Anime, Cats, Cooking, Books, Gunpla, Computers
Dislikes: Roaches, Vbscript type Viruses

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[Alex Tran]-NDS Gamer

[David Rosalin]- ADF Commander

[Emiko Yamamoto]- LSB Commander

[Erika Soto]-Yaoi Buddy

[James Huynh]- Dating Sim god

[Josh Harper]- Gundam / Manga Freak

[Kenz Cablay]- Rootbeer Comrade

[Maria Baker]- Heart owner (Jonuel's little runt ^w^)

[Misha Mihara]- Pink nosed bunny
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Lucky Star Brigade- Main page of the LSB Network A group page dedicated to both Lucky Star and Haruhi Suzumiya no Yuutsu, we got latest info on both. Check for Music/Videos and Pictures

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ANIME-LYRICS-DOT-COM- A group I'm trying to develop soon, visit if you need lyrics for a certain anime song
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Traits basing on divinity
AQUARIUS - The Sweetheart (Jan 20 - Feb 18)
Optimistic and honest. Sweet personality. Very independent. Inventive and intelligent. Friendly and loyal. Can seem unemotional. Can be a bit rebellious. Very stubborn, but original and unique. Attractive on the inside and out. Eccentric personality

General Features of a Blue Dragon

Generosity: One of the basic qualities of a Dragon is he/she is generous in nature. Dragons believe in sharing their fortune with friends. They are reliable and would be there to help anyone who is in need.

Independent: Dragons are self-reliant and independent in nature. They think twice before accepting help from others. Though a Dragon is considered as a social animal, there are times when he/she prefers to be left alone.

Free Mindedness: In Chinese astrology, Dragons play a vital role. The Chinese believe a Dragon is free spirited and do not like to play by the rules. A Dragon would set his/her own rules. People born under the Dragon sign are ambitious and extrovert by nature. The characteristics of the people born under a Dragon sign could be compared to that of Aries, Sagittarius and Leo of the zodiac sun signs.

Creativity: Dragons are known for their creativity. In a workplace, if you ask a person who is born under this sign to solve a problem, he is sure to come up with a very creative solution. A person born under the animal sign Dragon loves to be the center of attention and enjoys limelight.
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Basically a Anime Lover, A Computer Science Grad and Likes to Cook. My friends say I'm weird, funny, caring(?), kind(?),FAGGET, UNCLE, GAY, uptight, wacky and serious sometimes. also called a freak because basically i think differently unlike most people do. I actually like the fact that I may be a deviant.

I'm also a fan of zombie movies because of the blood splattering, gut explosions and head bursts. that also means I'm a fan of Saw movies and other torture shows. its been a while since ive seen a cannibal movie too. sadistic it may seem but I think I'm not, i just like this feeling of getting squirmy watching scenes like that

and what else... If theres one thing I HATE the most it wll be getting spam and chain mail from other people here. thats why I'm limiting my network as low as possible
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Well,I don't really know what to say,but I find you very warm and caring,even at times when you should be mad and furious.I love you the most.I don't care what people say,I still believe in us.Your my strength and energy.Your my Pandaa-chii,I can't live without you =D
-Maria Baker

You're a entertaining, funny, sexy Filo who has a kind personality BUT you are a loli-con I'm afraid. Or rather, you're a weird dude who like things flat, if you get what I mean. *wink wink*
-Alex Tran
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You're a fun person to talk to, you're very helpful, and you're also mean somewhat (well...you tease me sometimes though...)
-Mishiya Yui
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a good person who loves anime and sometimes a fat bastard .....hahahhahah thats what i think.....
- Lazing
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Your blunt...very blunt, can jump to conclusions without knowing the whole story. IT wizard,
Pretty cool,funny at times, very forgetful.
Good memory...though it's selective...clueless,
very smart,huggable! (though I really like hugging everyone....never gave you a hug though...) very insightful, a good friend. gives good advice, should follow most advice that's given, awesome singer, modest about singing abilities. Not the romantic type,More logical, Realist, nice collection of anime and music. a rare gem to find....though it's beauty isn't seen at first....is only shown after waiting a while and and much digging,Not to be forgotten
- Joanne
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You're my God of IT; you can put up with my insane Gundam-related ramblings; you cheer me up before I get a chance to depress myself; you got me to open up a little more; and you're such a good guy that the negative things about you crack me up, Mr. Gay Tsundere Lolicon. XD
-Josh Harper
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You're mean enough to women that people think you're gay but I just think you have a problem or some personal beef with us. You're a Code Geass freak, anyone can tell just by looking at your page. You're such a softy when it comes to animals of the feline kind and your interests are diverse. You can be really nice when you want and real helpful too. You're always uploading and posting and sharing pics/music/blogs/etc. There's never a dull moment with you and you keep things
moving. You're...a mystery.
-Christina
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seem a special person to me... sometimes fag or gay... XD Like a "holy screwdriver" Putting holes in my chest!!! Well you accept my forgiveness due to all the annoying things i done. Yet you are a fat, yet important friend to me.
- Dan Salterio
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sometimes he`s mean yet funny and can be serious and likes acting gay-ish and likes flat chested characters...?But in any case Misha can run to Jon and tell him if something`s wrong. And he always offers his help to others and is always there for us.
-Misha Mihara
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Jonuel is a very bright, intellegent person. He has always been like the wise, older brother that james has been too neglectful to be ^_^. He's kind, selfless, and always prepared to lend a helping hand. If you need anything thats short of borrowing money or asking him to dance, he'll gladly provide it. He's not short of providing advice, and unlike far too many people these days, he isn't to proud to take it. He is a very friendly chap, and will stick by you whenever he's able to. He is a man of honor and respect and, well, it's extremely hard to find a better friend. I sure haven't!

and despite being the nice guy in the group, you're very feminine. And you're the biggest Anime dork I've ever met in unreal life but you are the funniest dorky feminine Anime faggot I've ever met! and if you need proof of the feminine thing, look at his profile theme

Just remember: HE HATES SPAM AND CHAIN MAIL!
-Colby King
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Jonuel Toledo... he is the type of guy who is honest to a person he talks to even if he doesn't know the person that much or in other words he just known that person for the first time. Jon-kun is also the type of person who could flip the card of his trust to others with ease as long as he could see some major changes to the person is changing for good or worse.

Jon-kun is also the guy you could count on for help and assisting in some errands or works that he could handle. Jon-kun in short is a gentleman... as the matter of fact he is like a chameleon who could easily blend to the environment he is in too, a transparent person who you could understand easily which is a type of person I could trust as well.
-Chiaki Ü
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Jonuel is a very Ccccuuutttteee TEDDDY BEAR~! That many friends would like to give him a BIG HUG~! XD
-Joyce Lee
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Jonuel Toledo, a grade-A gay, dumb yet smart lolicon that used to be my ex-lover but now we're just friends, is a very very weird but interesting guy. Even though he is blunt, sensitive, and oddly enough emotional, he has his good points that makes up for the negative things about him XD."
- James Huynh
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7 Seeds- Pending @ 5
Addicted to Curry- Updated
Ai-Kora- Updated
Bara no Maria- Updated
Beach Stars- Updated
Beelzebub- Updated
Bleach- Updated
Clannad- Updated
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Doujin Work: Updated
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Holy Hearts-
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Kodomo no Jikan- Updated
Lucifer and Biscuit Hammer- Updated
My Girl - Pending @ 20
Mysterious Girlfriend X: Updated
Nagato Yuki-chan no Shoushitsu: Updated
No Bra: Updated
Ocha Nigosu-Updated
Oniichan Control- Updated
Saint Young Men- Updated
Tengen Toppa Gurren Lagann - Guren Gakuenhen-Updated
The World God Only Knows - Updated
To Aru Kagaku no Choudenjibou - Updated
To Love Ru- Pending @76
Tora Dora- Updated
Toriko- Updated
Ultimate!!Hentai Kamen- Pending @ 34
Yakuza Girl:
Yankee-Kun to Megane-Chan- Updated
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Bitter Virgin-
Black Cat
Girls Saurus
Koi no Kami-sama
Recca no Honou
Manhole
Nightmare of Nunally
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Contact
cell phone
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home phone
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Yahoo
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MSN
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Skype
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Custom
Books
information books, tech books, cookbooks ,manga
Quotes
Silence heals all my wounds, Let silence Envelope me. Sadness can come almost everytime, but sadness can only destroy your dreams and happiness, so be filled with Delight.. You have no right to Complain until you have complained already, You laugh at me because im weird, I laugh at you because youre all the same, Discord, Hatred, Sadness, Pain.. theres an emotion that can stop all that.. Its Love
Sports
Badminton, Sepak Takraw
Activities
Reading, Music, Anime, Cooking, Gardening, Reading and Sleeping *most impt*
Looking for...
someone to amuse me in this boring world
Occupation
Self Employed
Destination
Japan's Akihabara district, where all techies and anime lovers gather.
Favorite holiday
Christmas, New Year
Relationship status
Soul owned
TV Show
anime,comedy, suspense, horror, medical, informational, cooking
Hidden talent
If I revealed my hidden talent, it wouldnt be hidden anymore would it?
Birth Date
January 29 1988
Website
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Final Log
August 30 2009

[ tonight I confront my past, the entity that was probably responsible of my slight complex . Why does it sound im facing of a enemy of sort? or do i feel hostility for her?]

Physical Status: Normal
Mental Status: confused
Emotional Status: undetermined
Spiritual Status: Is this another one of your plans?

sunday morning and something sticky was beside me, i thought someone dropped some rice or something sticky but it was actually jayjay who wanted to sleep beside me. it would be fine if only he took a bath or washed his skin, hes sticky because of his weird skin. I would have preferred waking up with a cat beside me too rather than a sticky stinky kid like jayjay. I dont have time to spend time today here, i promised that i would attend the morning service from now on.

packing up my things i thought i lost my mouse i brought and began searching for it, ver instead lent me his mouse so i can go on my way. I checked the shop before going home, why do they have to act sweet when im around? are they mocking me acting sweet when im there? or are they like that all the time? ignoring that.. im going home and prepare. . walking towards the subdivision, another moment where i wondered for a female named maria baker's safety.. why am ithinking about her at a time like this? getting inside the house, there were 2 slices of black forest chocolate cake and ate one of them, joman was upstairs

she was still sleeping when its almost time for the first mass, i woke her up and told her to get ready. but of course i checked on my net updates,the net was still horrible. I really need to file another complaint, using this computer is stupid already. browsing at imeem i would feel shaky and confused

maria baker has arrived.. after more than a year she has returned, what is she talking about? that she still loves me? that she never looked for someone else? is she stupid? what is she doing? here i am hoping to ask for her approval and she tells me she havent even moved on yet? what is the meaning of this? guess God wants to test me again, with the first and the only woman i have loved so far. is he testing me? is my problems not enough at the moment?

forgetting that , joman and I went to the church and sat beside jomane, i heard she and barry broke up already, must be hard on her having someone she love leave her. not my business but i still teased her. I was there for another practical reason, for data again as i observed pastor's preaching style.. it appeared he used the conventional style, he hasnt developed a style of his own yet.

I was supposed to ask my father to bring me to the mall to file a complaint to my internet service provider but he had something else to do, our plans will be moved tomorrow afternoon. I spent the day at home thinking how can i confront this existence from the past. truth to be told I couldnt keep my mind straight, i asked her if i can nullify the contract we made back then at july 12. why does contracts meant so serious to me? why does loyalty is a heavy word for me? if only those two things doesnt matter to me , i could have easily moved on... if only

and the moment of truth came,here I am confronting a entity that to me was almost like a ghost, a existence that I believed would never show again to trouble me. what will I say? she still loves me but I fear im no longer like how i was before. I think ive become different over the year when she last saw me, no more was the jonuel who would love her and care for her tenderly.. what will I do?

and then we talked, she was trying to say sorry claiming it was all her fault, for me it was not her fault at all. my change was something caused by different things, things that have gradually changed me slowly. I narrated what has happened to me for the last year, my joy, my frustrations, my sadness, my enthusiasm, my zeal, my depression and the path i have taken. she on the other end explained why she was away for a year. and now to discuss a matter i have been wanting to talk about but circumstances would not let me

I wish for her to answer about my request for nullify the contract, she blatantly replied in which she asked me what would be better for me. I had reasons to look again for someone be it man or woman, i needed strength.. someone to rely on, a back i can lie on, a shoulder i can cry on, a hand that will help me when i need a extra one. that was my conditions to the new partner i may find. It is impossible for her to fill that i think, so this makes the matter closed. or so i thought but when she replied, i felt something weird

" I want to be your strength,and why? well,because i feel at ease when im talking to you,i feel comfortable,and i want you to feel the same way,just like you were my strength back then,and i want to return what u did for me back then i dont want to be someone who always takes and never gives "

"i dont want to repeat what i did but i know tht there's a chance it might happen again im not saying im sure but i'll tell you this i promise tht ill talk to u every day only on exam days and when im working on school projects and i might go out with my family sometimes but i'll leave an offline message when i come back,so how does that sound?"

this woman, is she really a idiot? why does she hold on to feelings that was frozen last year? why is she going through all this trouble for me? will she benefit from it? will she get anything from it? that i asked her. her words, more and more a strange feeling in my chest began to get stronger, this feeling was familiar. she still loved me and it felt something weird in me that i could not decipher. are females this idiotic? why is she so.. caring? so loving? to me? why? im confused, im really confused.

the verdict? she rejected my request, she wants me to continue being with her. she will be my strength and I will be her strength is how it ended. pretty lame seeing it on a different viewpoint but that was my reason, i needed strength and someone to rely on..but still, what is this? what am i feelings? this weird warm feeling inside me, thinking about it..

is this not real happiness? if it is then it made sense, this joy might be it. I dont think I can love her yet like I used to.. I cant reply to her feelings but i will try to take it back hopefully. the past mistake might repeat again but I dont really care about it, she can look for someone else if she want to. it was pretty understandable, however for me.. the words loyalty and love were two serious words i wont back down.

and here i am deciding to end this journey, this log. after 7 long months of typing away all that has happened to my life, i felt i have faced someone great in my face, the ghost of the past and she has entered again in my life as a real person who wish to be beside me. maria baker
it has been a tiring and fun journey logging everything my life in this place, probably when i read it in the future i would laugh about how my life was back then, how stupid and foolish i was and how in my old ways i tried to solve problems with the meager knowledge in my head.

now jonuel, will you repeat it again? will you find yourself not content with your life and start another one like what I did in the past? by all means necessary i hope you dont need to do it again, for at that time i wish you are already able to execute actions needed in life and not do another one like this for data.

to me who will be reading this in the future, i have one again accepted a female in my life. the same female that i loved back then, of course i do not know what future will be nor what situation you are in right now but please dont feel regret, make sure you are aware and have accepted the decisions we have made.
blog post Amber melancholy
Category: Inner thoughts
Posted: Aug 30, 2009 at 9:40 AM
Daily Log
August 28-29 2009

[ flustered, God is probably testing me again ]

Physical Status: Normal
Mental Status: how to confront the past
Emotional Status: flustered
Spiritual Status: God giving me something to think about?

Friday and im already all alone in the house, better prepare to get out. my money for this week will be deducted by 25 dollars because of the broadband bill i need to pay. but before leaving my town I dropped by at the shop to get additional money, mom was not there and norman was watching the shop along with his brothers. I forgot, my mother and jomane left the house early today so my mother can have another check up with her bumps growing in her body. joan toledo, just where are you planning to take this shop? to put it under norman already?

Ignoring that i arrived at the usual place , ver was cleaning the house and the moment he saw me, he asked me to check the garage. The dirty motor bike is already in pieces, there lies the main frame.. the scrapped metal pieces and useless junk that couldnt be used anymore like the headlight, side mirror and the seat while on the other end i could see the motor. and everywhere there was black soot that came from the motorbike, it collected so much dust from the past 2 years that they went trough trouble taking it all

but it was still not enough, the project for today is to get all the basic ones cleaned and dirt removed. so to not burden any more, I immediately sat in a chair and started scrubbing a rusted metal part with a sand paper soaked in water. While I sat there looking in the sky, i recalled a joke made by cherry last time they dropped by here

Ver: whats that? youre 60 kilos? youre almost as heavy as me? you should be ashamed of yourself!
Cherry: so what if were the same weight? is it wrong?
Me: well i think females are lighter than males
Ver: yeah! i bet it sbecause of your breasts!! thats whats making you heavy!
Cherry: look whos talking, i bet male testicles weight 10 kilos each
Me: even if you say it that way, its too much

it would be creepy if men had testicles as heavy as that, wouldnt that drop to the ground at that situation? giggling to my self, atok would think i was out of my mind because of the heat. the more i scrubbed, the more dirt and mud fell on my shirt and jeans. it sure was nice if I brough some clothes that are almost ragged, then i wouldnt give a care in the world if I get all dirtied. using a steel brush i would scrub very fast that the steel brush broke after that. at least we got to clean everything and would be ready for a paint job tomorrow. the small metal parts were good already, like hat one near the wheel that looked like a pipe bomb

getting inside would start one of the shortest days in my life. I would get a shower and lie on the floor playing plants versus zombies again. at nightfall I suddenly felt tired and dropped dead to my bed. this day was a day where I looked like a fool to people around me, they were knowledgeable about motor and i was not and everything for this day, what i did with them, i felt like a kid that I learned a few basic things about motorbikes , what to do and what not to do.

im screwed, the money I left last week and the money I had brought with me this week were all exhausted into paint and small items. I have not even paid atok for he fee yet, ver asked atok that i pay it in full instead when the project is finished. why did i became so tired? i just got knocked out
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Im feeling better when i woke up in the morning, I was trying to be considerate already. how? I was trying not to wake up at 6 or when I did, i stayed put on my bed trying not to take up both jay and ver. he as always would complain about my sleeping habits of sleeping really early when i was there and waking up early. he wouldnt wake up in good mood when he got out, he was complaining about our grandmother calling him a demon and other things because he couldnt pay the measly 6 dollars ver owe grandmother last time. grandmother spend a few when ver got hospitalized and now grandma was all out last night nagging ver. he dread that this morning our grandmother would cause another ruckus

and yes he was correct, we were having coffee this morning when our grandmother popped out like a mushroom in the dining room calling ver a lot of names again. in the middle of the fumed arguments, i would sip my coffee hoping that i wont get involved in this matter. though if given the chance who will i side, ver was indeed the one who was on the right side. who would call someone a demon just not paying a crummy 6 dollars anyway and not to mention that grandmother has a lot of money. too bad shes using it on our useless uncle who is a bum.

I feel obliged to help my grandmother to turn her to the right path, she is filled with nothing more but money. all she thinks about is money in my viewpoint. but a old person seem to be stubborn already and to consider she is the root of my mother.. doesnt that mean they share the same traits in mentality? who will save this woman? I know I know, stop telling it. i know I should think of my own image first in God's eyes but I have an attachment to my grandmother, somehow I want to help her but if i try, i fear that i will be like my mother where she was told not to go there anymore

putting that aside, we finished what was needed to be attended to on the skeletal frame of the motor bike. scrubbing the remaining rust and dirt would be the remaining task of the day.

I planned to study for this day, to catch up on a few chapters or probably a whole book from the bible but I kept on enjoying things from watching television to playing games. But I managed to catch on some pastors preaching being aired in the trinity broadcasting network. I was there to check on the different styles of their preaching. getting soaked on a show, ver approached me and commented

"why do you even watch shows like that? do you really think that will save you?"

hes right, the shows wouldnt save me but I never watched those whos for that purpose to begin with. I still believe im going to hell, i am a sinner and though i am aware that jesus died for it but still. what was the reason i was watching? isnt it because of selfish reasons? just to learn? for my hunger is there, i wish to know more. yes it will not save me.. the way to be saved is your faith in christ and your good ways.. dinner was another kick from ver, made me think he was mad at me or something.. it was too spicy again .. the stew he made that is. he should stop serving these spicy things once in a while, i heard they were not good....eating too much spicy foods.

he didnt wish to stay up late than usual though, he planned to sleep early.. before 10 and so we did but minutes later in a moment where id almost fall into a deep , hed tell me that he was hungry and asked if i wanted a snack. Im not really hungry but im sure he was trying to tell me he wants me to buy it, is he afraid of the streets at this hour? probably yes. i went out and bought one of those buy one take one double layered jumbo burgers. jay came along saying he was hungry too, at this hour? people in this house have weird stomachs.

jayjay is even weirder when he tagged along, it was almost midnight and he was full of energy running on and on back and forth while i was just walking. later on he would almost get hit by a tricycle if i was not there, he was a pain but he was just enthusiastic probably so i let it slip.
back inside the house we would watch some classic gundam wing eps before we all went to sleep.

my two days spent in here was not really productive but i managed to talk about money with aunt beng, she may fund the money we need for our business
blog post Gray Day
Category: Inner thoughts
Posted: Aug 27, 2009 at 3:57 PM
Daily Log
August 27 2009

[ I got some rest earlier but somewhat its still not enough, i still feel dizzy ]

Physical Status: dizzy, colds
Mental Status: financial issues.. the net bill and money for the repair fees for the motor for some
Emotional Status: no abnormalities
Spiritual Status: will get back on track

sleeping? not quite, I had trouble sleeping .. so it was 3:30 am early morning and without even a inch of sleep, what could be the source of this lack of sleepiness? Id like to blame to iced coffee I had last night when we went home, i was craving for coffee and had a carton of the stuff.. why do i do a lot of obvious things i shouldnt? I fell asleep in the middle of thinking and woke up by 6 having a roughly 2 hours of rest, If only I didnt have some sort of internal clock inside me, i could use some sleep

last day for work, might as well hold on for today.. i can get some rest there while i watch the register rather than letting that retarded pea brain norman do it, recently he has been getting arrogant already that yoyong calls him the boss now as a running joke. running to the shop i dropped by at a local snack stand that sells those cheap fish sticks. they were like fried spring rolls that had fish and carrots in it instead, they were cheap and addicting especially when dipped in vinegar and chili.

while i took up a few sticks, a poor looking lady who appeared as a junk collector handed a dirty peso to the woman in front of us and plans to buy one small fishball, driven probably with guilt having three fish sticks in my hand.. I gave one of them to the poor looking lady and ran away, somehow it feels awkward to me already when someone thanks me when I share food. I still dont like beggars but I still cannot stand hungry people.. somehow they dont go along with each other, my two beliefs. I feel pity for them , isnt that enough?

shop was running when I got there, usual faces. . usual activities, something should be done differently in here to spice things up, like throwing a dead rat inside the shop could ramble up the guys there especially that gayish brother of norman named Noe. I lacked the energy to do so, even as I type right now i could feel I have no feeling at all, probably from the lack of sleep. To patch things up i thought of having breakfast outside, cant move without gasoline afterall

getting back and plugging a fan, it immediately exploded in front of me charring my fingers, i must be really sleepy.. I just wrecked the power line with that. I sat in a corner to fix that with my big stubby fingers that had problems doing tasks that require a decent amount of dexterity, is there anything good with big fingers? except from hurting people? is there even a reason to go to the shop today? theres little to do, though customers are getting more and more. today's problem was the lack of acid supply, we have a lot of customers already looking for acid. I actually find my hands full interacting with the customers alone, this type of customer volume was normal back at the early months

the working hours passed by in a few moments to me, I was still busy at one time then id find it was time to go home... 1 am. to early but nothing else to do and i bet my mother would love if i was not around, i actually caught them earlier spoon feeding each other, are they teens? norman is but my mom? somehow i want to spit at it. but getting home and talking to a few net friends would reveal I was still lacking sleep, my vision was blurred and my head was spinning. I heeded that warning and took some rest

with a cat of course, the lucky victim was obama as i hugged him in my sleep. next thing I know is that some random guy on the door is telling me that the internet bill is here, I dont mind paying the bill on time but if only they would provide decent service then i would shut up. sadly the net has been pretty bad than usual for 2 weeks already. im going to complain

colds seem to be a trend among this place, i got it, my kittens have it.. obama and barack has it and even miyuki. obama have it bad as he would sneeze over and over again. minoru appears to be immune to the recent trend.. probably he is not affected by peer pressure. father paid me a visit at nightfall and I asked him a favor about bringing the computer along with me this sunday... along with that im going to file another complaint to my isp provider

its night again, i better get some sleep before i get sleep deprived again. tomorrow I will be rejuvenating myself again.. sort of
blog post A Lame day requires a Lame title
Category: Inner thoughts
Posted: Aug 26, 2009 at 4:45 PM
Daily Log
August 26 2009

[ Finally got home, i was beginning to think that my mother wants to spend the night at dad's place. ]

Physical Status: No Abnormalities
Mental Status: thinking.. about a lot of things.
Emotional Status: troubled
Spiritual Status: still ashamed

wednesday morning and its 7 in my watch, unlike yesterday when I had no reason to get up.. I had a strong urge to get out of bed and get to the shop as early as possible. I got there just in the right time, norman was just about to open the shop, i was even able to kick the steel gate , something i was unable to do for a while now.

It was not even 8 yet and there were a few customers passing by and most would be asking for the same thing, sugar. like a friend told me, sugar has been and will be scarce soon.. the market price for sugar has risen to a extent that for a span of 6 months the price of brown sugar now has the price for secondary and secondary's price is good for white. because of the sudden price increase, some are rattled and forced to do a few tricks like selling wrong sugar. we were one of the victims.

To mend things up on our side, I had norman to do a little mixing with the brown sugar added with a bit of white sugar to make it look like it was secondary, we have to make a profit too. those guys that buy sacks of sugars by the thousand are messing up with prices again, they may be reaping in big cash right now but the ones affected are the consumers and the retailers.. then again do they care? the customers are starting to take its toll on us as they would demand prices that is outrageously low that its not even meeting the base price, ridiculous people.

being half owner of this place, I see myself in a pinch right now. I felt a strong torrent created by people and the small ones was getting dragged in it, how can we survive this ordeal? is there no choice but to stop distributing sugar? if we did then the remaining customers would not rely on us anymore, at least we have to profit even if its little. though its still not throughout the BER months and the sugar has risen already? we have not even got the chance to stock up, im pretty sure sugar and oil rises at the end of the year.. this is something that has arrived too early

well whats the use of complaining? theres a lot more customers today, most are in it for oil though. To do something in the morning, I had a sack of salt and repacked it. 40 kilos of re packed salt will go a long long way, maybe it will last til next month. whats weird though is how come flour prices has not changed at all? it should rise along with oil and sugar right? then why is the price stable these past few months? no... for 8 months now it has been stable unlike oil where its price can crop to as low as 500 pesos per container to a whopping 800 pesos per container. im still not in the hang of the business game it seems, if only I can understand more about price predictions like most do.

Kuya Willie dropped by again to get some oil from us, since he was here I had the plastic sealer fixed by him. He would joke around saying there was a consultation fee of 500 pesos for fixing the sealer, what is he? a doctor? he got rumors about flour, it may go down soon. how come its not going up like sugar? he shared the same opinion as i do and it was indeed the big sugar dealers up north playing with the prices again, prices went up because of its current demand, the big guys are probably still swimming in cash and we the small ones trying to keep up with their antics, like a forced joke

there were a few passing people that would screw around, asking for sugar not even at the base price. any more and id rip their heads off for their arrogance. the consumers still have a bad habit of naming the prices on their own, do they believe that we will obey them with a measly profit or even without profit? they can keep their crummy money if thats what they wish! same with kya willy said, if they dont want the price then they can get it somewhere else, if they can get what they want in the price they demand. fools

I got off by 3pm to prepare for my class by 7pm, I got home and fed my cats as usual before getting inside. as usual, seeing obama would mae me molest him, he probably thinks im molesting him like i do think about it as i smothered him with kisses and hugged him a lot of times, he was too adorable though he was black and most find him not cute. by 5 i got out and visited the shop to get some money, for what? the tuition fee for my school at the church.

Sugar was there and my mother managed to get a measley 50 sacks per sugar type and inspecting it myself, it was not good at all. we didnt have a choice though.. we have to bear with it, its not their fault. in the shop , my mother and norman was alone. mom was stroking norman while he was sleeping in the chair I sit all the time, coughing up would make norman stand up in his seat and go back to work. Ignoring that I got the money and fled before I see something that may scar my eyes.

being too early, I thought of getting a haircut. dropped by at the favorite index salon that had gays in there, for some reason I trust my hair in gays, they seem to know their stuff really well. I got on a seat and the gay started cutting my hair and I havent even said a word, whats with here? I havent even said I need a trim yet, or does this gay know me already? well never mind..my hair was indeed thinning

I was still a hour early and had a carton of iced coffee and some vanilla biscuits to accompany me during that time, singing a song I sang when I feel depressed.. true light by miyamoto shinichi. before 7, a fellow student at the church got there. he was probably in his late 30s and would exclaim how wonderful God that he is being used in the ministry. I admitted though that i wasnt in it yet for the same reason.. it was for selfish reasons why I was here and i was the only one that was young there.. for I was hungry, hungry for knowledge and that I wish to be quenched

tonight's study was good as usual, it was part of the week where I could get a breathe of fresh air, however I dont think Im catching up with them any more, It may mean i have to study more again. I need to get the bible too, and that notebook where i kept ll my reflections back last 2007. getting out I would pass by mother and norman in her vehicle, i chased that. I dont want anything stupid to happen if they were both in a car in a night like this

They were heading to my father's place , she wants to spend time with my sisters. jomane was studying when i saw her and joman was in her bed using her phone, something is wrong however. Why is jomane wearing no bra? I can see her nipples and I should say they were pretty distracting, while joman wore shorts that was too short .. i can see her crotch slightly already. is this the reason why males go around them like bees to honey?

they would take their sweet time talking with each other and my mother would not even plan of leaving if father did not arrive, I salute her thoughts not dragging norman inside the house or i might have pushed him out of the door. father would come and we would get to talk for a few minutes and him lecturing me about the dangers of motor cycles again. someone at work died apparently so he wants me to wear a helmet if i use the motorbike again. without further adieu we went back home

its almost 1 am in my watch and i havent slept yet, so much for beauty sleep.


i think im forgetting to log in something important that happened today, might be because im sleepy already. work awaits tomorrow! i mean later.
blog post Culmination of the cold blooded
Category: Inner thoughts
Posted: Aug 25, 2009 at 11:37 AM
Current mood: wicked
Daily Log
August 25 2009

[ and another day that I forgot to notice something, what was it? the day the first person I loved left me.. August 24, no wonder i felt so depressed earlier. funny ]

Physical Status: tired
Mental Status: forgetting things from keys to where I place my money
Emotional Status: worried
Spiritual Status: still ashamed

friday? no not yet.. i shouldnt ask for such things when im still not reaching my target, I should work more for the following days to somehow .. at least hasten the repairs of the motorbike. its still tuesday , jomane is in here today because her on the job training was finally over. Instead of doing the usual , I got hooked into a simple game named Plants Versus Zombies.

It was a simple game that I think only 10 -15 yr olds would play where you would protect your house with different plants. still i enjoyed the game til it was too late, 8 am. Aww who cares? Im pretty sure my mother will ask norman to open the shop when she wants to! is there any reason to get up early every morning at this rate? I did not assume that the development would be this fast, about my descent in position and role when he made a move.. this was too early.

mother and jomane was downstairs talking about my sister's daily life at work, in my mother's eyes I could see enthusiasm..it felt the same as my grandmother hoped for her daughters. my mother was doing something that my grandmother has done in the past, putting all her expectations on my sisters. I have no complaints about it, she has lost hope in me it seems, I dont want to be sucked in society filled with work and waste a whole lifetime in it. i chose this path here and people like my family showed their disagreement with what I chose.

I joined the conversation that was being held in the living room, and just in a instant the conversation was turned to the topic i find uncomfortable to talk about... It was abigail, they want me to give her a chance and why am I straying away from her? Why cant I even consider getting a partner like her? she was one of the best in the computer science department and was adored by people around her because of her excessive cheerfulness. despite all of that I feel no urge or whisper anymore to even consider getting in good relations with her, why do people push their ideals into my head? it was okay if they tell it once but my family has been nagging me to be in good terms with her

I dont like her, I dont like her at all. and that I guess goes to all the females right now, this problem of mine. sure is interesting that God has been playing with me, or is this my own fault? no.. God does not tempt people nor the reason why I am hurt, this is probably my own fault. even so .. even so I believe even now that searching the feeling called love love again is out of the question, I dont want to commit myself to someone again like the first person I loved. Where I swore loyalty and despite that she left leaving me confused, I dont want that to happen again

"so you are afraid? you dont want to get hurt again?"
It appears that a reason why I am so hostile to her is that, I must be afraid to be hurt again.. i am afraid to be abandoned again, I am afraid to be confused, afraid to be sad and alone. Loving someone felt really good and I felt so strong both mentally and physically when I felt it, to put it in simple terms.. it was like a power up. a amplifier, a igniter. but of course it was not all good, I experienced its other effect that most probably encountered. I made a resolve not to experience it like the common people do.. to regret about the person they loved. If I love, I decided to make sure it was the right person and be not like the rest jumping immediately with no proper reflection about it

looking at me right now, I must be someone who has already hated females. then why does the word maria is spoken or heard in my mind... I do not feel any anger or wrath for her til now, in fact i feel a small pain inside me even now. it turns my heart sour remembering the name of the person I have pledged loyalty, I do not care if she loved me back but I prefer she be happy.. why dont I hate her? she was the woman that has turned me like this right? she abandoned me leaving me like a fool right? then why? even til now i wish of but one thing for her, I wish she was happy but at least put my soul to rest

Love, it sounds to simple but thinking about it this morning made me hungry. good thing there was some chocolate on the table and that i gnawed while the conversations continue. my mother was telling me she would pay for our dates.. she wants me to date someone? and to be specific that over energetic midget? no way, i may consider if she was as tall as me and maybe almost as old as me, she was 4 years younger than me. I dont want any immature person to be with me, am i even considering to have a partner? never mind

mother did not want to go to work today too, she told us that it was a rare opportunity for me and her along with jomane to be in the same room and talking nonchalantly and joking around, to retaliate i said that it wont be long for I will be spending longer days on ver's place. she detested it , as if she can do anything about it, she can spend her days with norman, hope she enjoy her time. from thinking about killing norman, my mindset changed.

I just want to pack norman in a human cannon sending him back to where he originally lives.. down the south in mindanao and probably with my mother along if she wants to.

I would be tag teamed by my sister and mother who would tell me to get a job again, it was easy to get a job if it was me according to them. still , trying to explain to them was for naught. I find the place in the country was fine than in the city, as simple as that. Now all I need is to get a business here in the country started, jomane would be angry and tell me that I am wasting my intelligence. what is the worth of getting a job if im not happy? and probably be unable to fulfill my mission because of being sunken into work like most do, something like that i dont want to have. Id rather live with almost torn clothes and with no luxury at all

to change the topic , I threw the application form I filled out to my mother. It was a application form to start going in the pastoral ministry and I need her to cover the first few fees that needs to be paid, unlike when I ask her to buy me some clothes like she does for norman.. she agreed to it and was enthusiastic about it. she wanted a pastor from one of us, I kept telling her that I had no plans to become a pastor. I want more knowledge, I am hungry and my hunger for knowledge needs to be filled. as simple as that, but when given the chance to serve the ministry, Id rather be a teacher like brother mayeight than be a pastor like pastor hermie. I dont think im cut to be a pastor

"was moses cut for a messenger of God at first?"
"what about paul? he was a anti christ"
"take peter for example, he was just a fisherman"
"dont say youre not capable, when you are needed by God then you shall follow"

yeah yeah fine fine, wait a second! stop stop stop! stop messing around! I dont want to! but still.. I know that when God wants to then I will. but given the free will i wish not to, stop messing around.. you.. you.. who is that voice anyway? my conscience? or something else? if it was me then how come it does not address itself like today and some time it addresses itself like it was me? I dont get it, this is all messed up

The clock would turn to 10 am when the conversations stopped, we had to hurry. jomane had a few tasks to do from taking our grandmother our for a shopping to do some file applications in the DTI. I dont want to go to work but if I did not then someone will do it and I will lose money, probably .. who else? norman!

near the shop would be the BICV and mother chuckled calling him my bestfriend, I dont want to talk to him in the morning.. his breath stinks and it smells like crap.. like his face.. he looks like crap. do not judge ye by his face.. ehem. he told me that he paid his debt for yesterday's oil. norman was already running the shop when we got there and got things started.

I gave up on fixing the electric sealer, i might ask kuya willie to do it for me when he gets around. he was a graduate of mechanical engineer if im right, hes better at fixing things like this.. probably. and another day started with nothing important happening. The old clothes of mine that I scoured yesterday was being washed by norman already, we came into drastic terms and had to mix sugar to have a bit of profit, the big ones has been fooling around with the sugar supply, the sugar has raised again to a price that may piss people off. 6 months ago , the price of brown sugar was low but today .. its price was so high that it was enough to buy secondary at the same amount. the inflation rate is increasing, probably oil will follow sort as well

some foolish retard came knocking in the shop buying a simple can of sardines. he handed me a 20 dollar bill and I gave him the can of sardines, he asked if there was a bigger one and when there was none, he asked for a refund and I gave him the 20 dollar bill but demanded that I received a 40 dollar bill, he said i give the other 20 dollar bill though but checking the register there would be no other 20 dollar bill. I looked at him with a pissed face and ran away, he was one of those swindlers that I heard. mother and norman was both tricked at it and both claimed they were hypnotized

norman would pull a prank in the afternoon stealing the baby of ate belen , she left the door on their place open and norman took the baby and hid it. her mother would panic but norman gave it back anyway but getting a few jabs from ate belen.

sugar is pretty screwed, not only they were expensive, I discovered that they were lacking a kilo per sack. this is frustrating but not my problem anymore, its my mother's and probably norman's. im going home.

and idle time was spent after that , all alone. the usual and only music would break the silence in this room. 7:30 in my clock.. mother wont be here for another 3 hours probably. what else is new? if only I had someone to complain to. then again this log thing can be a rant page for me ..mmm.. maybe id try ranting some other time when I reach my limit.

now to find a cannon strong and large enough to fit a tall man

Profile Comments

Oct 17th, 8:20am
Oh okay,I hope u had fun with the band ^^
I can log in for like 15 minutes,since i have a break now!
So see ya on the msn :P
Oct 17th, 7:54am
Well,I just finished my homework,might as well finish what i started yesterday from the projects T_T
I kinda finished 1 yesterday,so 2 more to go =_=
I'll ask mom for help when she get's home,so I hope I finish early DX
Btw when do you have practice?? (for the band)
Or did you finish already??
Becoz there might be a chance that i finish early!!
Oct 16th, 6:51pm
Jonuel!!
Gomen I can't be on this Saturday T_T
I have a lot of projects to do this week,seems like i need 2 days to finish them DX
so this Saturday is taken xO
is it okay with you??
if not tell me,coz then i'll try to figure something out Dx
Hontoni gomenasai XC
Oct 15th, 2:28pm
Waaaah! OMG!! You should check if she's dead or alive,I mean ur Little Runt hasn't replied on ur paging for like 2 days Dx

Okay see ya in 2 days xD
Waaaaah!!
OMG!!
I hope it's nothing serious coz if it was,I'm goin to fly all the way from Switzerland just to come and kill you,did you hear me Jonuel Toledo!! 3x

Ummm no I don't (A)
Wahahahaha xD
Sure!
Awww my Pandaa finally wants to particpate in bands and such *sniff* *sniff* I'm so proud of you xD
5-6 pm ur time means..around 11am-12pm my time right??
Yeah sure we can change it to that time ^^ (if it meant 11am-12pm my time that is xD)
Okay cyaaa,Take care u big FAT meaniee! xD

No we're not T_T
ur the loser while i'm..THE PRINCESS!! xD
Wahahahahahahahahaha xP
Oct 14th, 3:50pm
yea.......so did how old r u
Oct 14th, 3:50pm
yea.......so did how old r u
Oct 13th, 6:40pm
HAHA
Because you did something bad!!!
Someone wasnt being a good Panda X3
LOL
IDK
Because shes having fun?
I tend to do that too XP
Pretty fun you know X3
I think??

I guess
IDK
Im not lazy
And I think I would just be locked up in my room if that happened XD
LOL
It would be cool but its okay
Right now atm I have absolutely no use for that fridge
No water connection thingy here XP
HAHA
Hore hore!!
I hope you ask before opening their fridge you know XD

Ummm
I think my laptop is heavy
Its 7 pounds
I mean like 10 if you add the battery and charger and such
And thats on my back TwT
I bought it just in case I might need to do some projects in the future with high processing power
I got the new HP DV6 Artist Edition one
So I thought it was cool
But it hurts TwT
It is wide indeed
And yesterday
My wireless for some reason didnt work
So I was mad
I brought my laptop for nothing XP

Thats good for you!!!
I dont wanna be with too many people
One person can make you happy ^^
YAY!!!
IDK
I just think thats kinda gross XP
LOL

Well
The router is downstairs
And I am upstairs
So yea
It was a good solution
Vs running a cable
And that would take a while
HAHA
But yea
I wouldnt wanna run that cable!!
I know Dad would make me do it XO
But Physical connection is the best
Did I tell ya the story
About some dumb people
Went into best buy
The guy wanted a high performance Gaming Laptop
So he can take his online Poker anywhere?
WTF!!!!
Any computer is good enough for Online Poker
HAHA
Loser

I want Misha for Christmas!! X3
I miss her
LOL
That and I want my car already
For me
Im gonna die already if I dont get that soon
It makes me sad to see other kids getting it
When you work the hardest for it
But I want my Misha still ^^
Oct 13th, 6:10pm
Im sick and I have finals next week TwT
Oct 13th, 4:02pm
Waaah i just realized i wrote DAISKE>>my way not urs DX
Okay fine I meant DAISUKI!! xP
Cheeee~
(omg i just embarrassed myself DX I feel like a loser now..naaaaah!! XD)
Oct 13th, 4:00pm
xD
I'm too busy to comment on ur last 2 comments,so i might as well inform you that i'm fine,but a bit tired of school work T_T
Hmmm what else?? DX
Oh yea,I dunno if there will be any changes on the appointed time on saturday but i'll inform ya if there was :D
oh yeah and I miss you more (L)
By the way,i got what u meant xD
Wahahaha,okay nevermind,g2g back to doing my homework =_=
cyaaa in *counts* 3 days? XO
I LOVEEE YOUU!! >(okay i know im trying to be funny here xD)>>but seriously im just copying a mate of mine ;)
Hahaha xD
i really g2g,cyaa and take care Jonuel-chiiiiiiii xP
DaiSKE!!>>there i wrote it ur way DX
( and sorry if there were any typo mistakes,it's coz im typing quickly..kinda xD)

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