So, back on to the story of Hana and the drama of Margaret, Junie, Stephanie, Helena and Kavya (my other friends).
We just came back from our end of the year, educational senior only trip in Quebec and Montreal.
Let's go back to the trip, where it all started.
So we're on the bus, happy people. As soon as a movie goes on, Hana asks Helena to go sit with her.
Here's the thing, so Helena's not really our friend for past reasons.
So Margaret and I's best friend is hanging out with the girl we aren't really fond about, but we deal with it because Hana says it's just so there won't be any problems when they go into a room together, because they're room mates in the hotel along with Stephanie and Kavya.
But a few minutes into the movie, Hana says she needs to go to the bathroom.
Helena said she watched her, and Hana only went in for 2 seconds and went to go sit with Bryan.
Later on we go on a boat cruise. All the guys I said before are hitting on Hana.
A boy named Garrett goes all emo for the trip, and another friend: Anna, is "worried" about his state, so she goes and tells Hana it's her fault he's like that. So she makes Hana dance with Garrett.
Bryan is all mad now because he hears the news about the deal.
Margaret likes Luke, but Luke likes Hana, so she is jealous of Hana as well.
Hana keeps flirting with all of the guys we like, that's what makes it half annoying.
What's more annoying is that she ditches all of us for the guys.
On the boat cruise, Helena, Margaret and I are talking about this situation, but don't like talking behind her back, but we have no choice anyway.
Then Hana comes and everyone is quiet for a moment, and she gets the idea we're talking about her.
So she tells us off and walks away. A few minutes later we make up.
On the trip back, she sits with Bryan, while we're all having fun without her.
It didn't really matter but it never felt right.
So we all think she's just using us so she won't look like a loner when she's not with Bryan.
One small pointer. Hana gets the idea we're mad at her after Helena tells her off a bit.
She promised at the restaurant: "chicks before dicks, sister before mister".
But the thing is, she says that, and on the bus she sits with us for 5 minutes, then goes to sit with Bryan again.

Like I said before, she's my best friend, she's all our best friend. That's why we're all affected.
So here's my problem. And here are my questions.
What should I do to explain what we're all feeling without getting her mad? (Hana gets mad REALLY easily)
How should I say things?
Do I explain everything from ditching to us and lying to us or just that we want to know the truth?
Do I say that we feel like she's using us or do I just keep low for now?
Should I tell her what we're feeling and that we all feel used?
Should I tell her we feel neglected by her?
What does a good friend do in this situation?
What would YOU do in this kind of position?
So please tell me. Give me your advices, opinions, feed backs... everything!
I don't care what you say, just as long as it helps us!
You would be helping all 5 of us: Margaret, Kavya, Stephanie, Helena and myself.
I am sick and TIRED of feeling used, neglected, and stepped on.
What makes it worse is that my own best friend is doing this.
We were friends for way too long just for it to spoil.
We've been through thick and thin and through every setback together.
Now one of us is gone and the setback is one of our own friends.
This is honestly a tough decision.
Thanks again to the people who helped me before.
But the problem is gone and there's a new one.
She stopped flirting with other guys and moved on to ditching us for one.
So thank you anyway.
You people who helped me have showed me that there's at least someone out there who listens and cares.
What's even more better is that most of you who helped me are people I don't know, and you still showed you cared.
All my friends are very happy, and are very thankful for you people. So thank you a million.
Please give us your advice, feedback, opinions, past experiences, or anything you experienced before.
Just to show us that there are more people out there who care, and that this world is not just full of BS (bull shit)
Thank you, and send your thoughts in! We really need your help!

I love(d) him, and then I thought I got over him, I was pretty sure of that...
he broke my heart, because he kept making fun of me and then I knew he wasn't ever meant for me...
But now I love him again, and I don't know what to do.
In here, let's refer to him as: Dave...
Here's the other story.

She is my best friend. We'll call her Hana. All the guys like her. At least 5 guys like her.
She doesn't like any of them, she likes another guy, we'll call him Bryan.
She only likes him because he said he liked her.
I see her flirting with Dave during class, and I'm sitting right in between them.
They're both laughing at our supply teacher and making fun of her.
I try to work with my other friends beside me. Lets just call them Isabella and Margaret.
I try to ignore them, but it's just so impossible.
Hana is killing herself from laughter and so is Dave.
I'm so jealous of her because she's just so much better.
5 guys like her and she likes another guy,
but its so obvious she flirts with Dave.
Laughing so loud at the things he says, laughing so much at the funny faces he makes.
But I'm still working with Isabella and Margaret, I felt like I want to die.

She says Dave is the ugliest guy on earth, and she'll always stick with Bryan.
But how come I can hear her laughing with Dave all the way across the other side of the room?

I am so jealous of her. Hana just came from the Philippines, now she's the one everyone seems to talk about.
Why does she have to flirt with Dave if 5 other hearts are being broken?
She says she likes someone else but still there's another heart being broken... of course that is me.
Why does she have to flirt with Dave if I've already told her so many times that he is all I've got?

Still I keep telling her, that I'm jealous of my other friends and how depressed I am, but still it doesn't seem to change.
She always flirts with the ugly guy that now who's broken me more than twice and now I fell I must die...

I already told her I was jealous of her, and somedays, she seems a lot happier.
My friend Margaret tells me it's because she's happy someone is jealous of her.
I don't want to believe it, but I don't want to waste my emotions denying the truth.

I want to stay her friend, but I can't help it when she's happy with her life with the guy I like...
I know that puppy love is so childish and I'm just so stupid in being jealous of her,
but how can I get over it
if it's my best friend and the guy I like?

You can tell me anything you want, how stupid I am, how childish I am.
Please just say whatever you want just as long as it'll help me!!
Tell me things to help me get over Dave, tell me things to get over jealousy...
Tell me advice or your past stories that can convince me I can overcome this.

Please just tell me anything, if this happened to you, let me know!
If you have something to say, PLEASE! JUST SAY ANYTHING!!
So I can make the hurt go away...
Tell me how to get over this jealousy.
Tell me things on how you got over loving someone.
Just say anything, I'll listen to anything and everything you'll say!


P.S. This is actually real. This is not a story I just made up. I am really depressed, and jealous and I'm not exaggerating anything. This is all what I'm feeling right now... please tell me anything of what you think!!
I don't care about what you say, I won't get mad!! Please help me!! You would be doing a GREAT BIG FAVOR for me!! Please help me!! :'(

Promise
by: Jessica Sills

As you sit in silence
wondering why,
I'll be your shoulder to cry on
Until your tears run dry.

When you've been hurt
and can't believe what they've done,
If you need someone to talk to
I'll be the one.

If a close friend hurts you
and you don't understand,
Remember I'm here,
I'll lend a helping hand.

Burdens are lighter when carried by two,
And I just want you to know
I'm here for you.

Love Maze
by Amber Smith

As I walked down the crowded halls,
I saw him standing there.
He was flirting with his girlfriend,
Her hands massaging his hair.

I can just hear the conversation now:
"Are ya gonna be at the game?" he asks.
"I wouldn't miss it for the world,
I'll be sitting with Anna on the grass."

I take one last glance,
And then turn my head away.
My heart can't take this carnival ride,
For my emotions tend to stray.

If you haven't caught on yet,
Let me fill you in:
The guy I long for is taken,
And I'm left in the garbage bin.

I see him every day in school,
And he should be able to notice me.
But somehow out of his busy schedule,
He finds the time not to open his eyes and see.

He did once talk to me,
He tapped me on the back.
But his eyes filled with questioning,
Asked for the class movie, if I had a snack.

Does he do this on purpose?
Or is he just to blind to see?
My head says I should forget him,
My heart says he belongs to me.

Now maybe I'm just being normal,
Or I'm just in a mindless daze.
I feel like a naive little mouse,
Trying to find its way through a complicated maze.

What is this and where does it come from?
Does it come from above?
The only explanation that comes to my mind is,
It's that exotic thing called love.

Why Am I Crying?
by Caria Canalez

The grass is billowing by the steed.
The night is so very clear.
all I really, really need.
is to know that you are there.

The moon is shining brilliantly white.
the stars are twinkling everywhere.
so why am I crying on this beautiful night?
I am crying because you are not there.

-->> im actually really proud of this poem. I wrote it for a school project on a poetry unit.
I can't believe i presented this to my class.
Well, at least my teacher loved it.
She says my writing has gone a long way since the first day...
Ok please note this was made when i was in GRADE 7.. lolz
Thought you should know. I say this is a nice poem!
Lolz. This was when i wasnt too confused about my love life..


He just walks away
and I still don't know what to say
for him to stop walking away
and make him stop and listen.
I didn't want to hear those words,
but I made that dumb decision
To listen to those dreadful words
Made my heart skip more than 2 beats

2 words he said and that was it
"It's over"
cuz I feel it will never work out
Half my life nearly held up
on a guy I thought was worth it
I have no more choice in this game of pain
but to just kneel down again to forfeit

I know many times people have said:
love is a hurtful game.
but I never knew that I would have
been added to the list with my name

Some days seemed a lot better whenever I was thinking of you
But now that you are gone I can't think of anything better to do
Without you by my side
It's colder when it gets to the nights
Without you to walk me through life
it seems that everything hates me, even including the time.

Without you I am nothing.
But I still ended up with something.
I finally realized what a fool I am
for loving you and thinking I can...