9:48 pm while doing some article..

Me: san ka
K: dto nko condo..kpgod. skul kp?
Me: nope. dito nko bahay.. i miss u =c
K: punta ka dito..?
Me: (i decided not to reply anymore..sigh)
K: ei..

see. the point of this entry is that im sooper busy i cant even entertain casual sex anymoore.. haha.

kidding. but yeah i really am busy.

I was at your doorstep. It was past midnight. I can feel the cold air, numbing my skin. Sometimes I wish it could do the same to my heart, but it can’t. Feelings aflame for you can’t be put out by the freezing current of air. I was staring at your window; I know you’re still awake. I wanted to call your name, but there was no voice coming out from my mouth. I wanted to shout. I wanted to scream out loud: I love you! I love you! But I know it would only be heard by deaf ears now. I love you. I know u loved me. I just know. Even though you don’t say it out loud, your actions speak otherwise.

But why ignore? Why the cold treatment? And why do I have to realize the depth of my feelings for you now that you’ve started ignoring me? God it hurts so fucking much. I can’t believe I’m hurting this much.

I can still remember our last kiss. Bittersweet kiss. Who would’ve thought it was the last time I can taste your lips..if I had known then, I would’ve never let go of your kiss..i would’ve never let go of your embrace..i would’ve never let go of our borrowed time.. I guess it will always remain like this. Borrowed.

I decide to go home then…ill just come back some other time. Maybe tomorrow. Or maybe not. But I will. Before our borrowed time ends for us…forever.

whew. been awhile since i last posted anything from here. i was just busy as in. lots of school things can really kill my social life u know. how i wish that these things would end. wishful thinking ha.

details on my upcoming posts. im about to sleep.

im still alive.


my pc's dam broken so i cant blog on a regualr basis. damn it.

im buying a new desktop next month!! or else im gonna die of boredom! T_T

it's been almost a week since my ate and my pamangkin went back to japan. and God, i missed them terribly already.. ='( especially my pamangkin who's been the sole reason for my happiness these past few weeks. i just adore that child so much. it feels like he's my own son. haha. true. they were here for a 3-week vacation. since it's their summer break from school, they decided to go here. their original plan was to go to palawan or davao. but due to the non-stop rain bec. of the typhoons their tour was cancelled. plus my sis had to take care of some legal matters so they were stucked here at home. and my nephew was circumsized too, so to sum it all, they were actually "stranded" here in manila.

i really really love my nephew. he was so close to me that i cried when we were at the airport bidding our goodbyes. it just feels sad that we wont be seeing each other again for the next 5 years. yep, 5 loooon years before they will go back here again. huhu.

anyway, i made a promise to him that i will buy him an ipod video for his birthday next year IF he can achieve a higher rank in Karate before his bday comes. i asked him if he can become a black-belter! haha. naaah. a violet belt will do.

sigh. im gonna miss that kid ='(

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grabe, ilang araw na akong walang pasok dahil sa bagyo! uhmm.. not healthy rin kc im stucked here at home...

thinking of reasons why im miserable.

out.