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Akuma Oni This profile is dedicated to a good friend of mine... Therese Sator, where are you now??

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Description
You figure it out.
Basic
gender
Male
relationship
Single
birthday
December 23, 1984
Network
city
Cebu
 
 
Interests
clubs
BF Townhomies,
talents
I have no talent, I can only sing when im drunk, the only thing i'm good at is on games and computers. Im not that geek though.
Entertainment
music
AlterNativez.. Rock, tecHno
Custom
Movie
All Foreign, NO LOCAL hehe
Sport/Activity
SleePing Awake, PlaYing Online Gamez, Buying Pirated DVD's hehe
Book
Book of the Dead
TV Show
Too Freakin' Many
Languages
Cebuano, Tagalog, English, Slight Nipponggo
Hidden talent
Can Eat A LOT..
Hobby
Playing Online, Buying Pirated DVD's
Email
hawthorne_heights999@yahoo.com, necromancer_doug@hotmail.com
Favorite holiday
ALL Holidays because no Work and With Pay hehehe
Looking for...
Friendz, Muzic Loverz, Crazy People Like ME
Occupation
Internet Research Staff
Relationship status
Single
Destination
Anywhere But HEre
Current job
Desktop Support LEAR-PETC

Profile Comments

Jul 8th, 12:16pm
Hehe.. no worries about it... (^o^)y. Green in colour I am but Bruce Banner I'm not (Lame old Yoda joke??? LoL...) Anyway, hope you're doing well there where you're at. Take care & have a great week ahead.

(^o^)y
Apr 20th, 1:11pm
Dear Akuma,

Hey i finally see your real life picture! ^^ Thanks for paying us a visit, man : )

For the post here, http://www.imeem.com/groups/PhhqtF4I/forums/K0hzediR/yJXgrIFr/the-asrlg-experience-photos-sharing-community/#8LfzZzd As stated one post max 2 pictures only ^^ Can you please edit your post for us? : D Maybe the last 2 vacation picture u can put them in a new reply post. Thanks ^^
Apr 2nd, 7:13am
Ahh gnun
how old kna?^^
Mar 28th, 6:23am
Eh. x)
Tga davao poh aq,
// ikw?
Dec 24th, 1:11pm
Nov 28th, 4:10pm
Hello xD

amping pirmi (;
Oct 9th, 10:15am
I finally logged in to my imeem acct. again :)
its good to be back...
well...just dropping by...hope your doing good^^
Jul 16th, 4:19am
May 23rd, 8:58pm
hey there, amazing profile
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blog post Emptiness
Category: Some Stuff..
Posted: Jun 16, 2007 at 2:33 PM
Current mood: lonely
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Life is full of shit always. I have so many problems and some of these problems are can only be solved when you are already dead. I have to wake up same shit everyday going to work and still I feel empty. Like a shell that lays lifeless across the wide expanse of beach that we call LIFE.

Sometimes I would think to myself.. why is this happening to me? Why me? What did I do wrong in the first place anyway? These questions keep on bouncing up and down in my mind like a bunch of stupid frogs. I know we are not perfect or nobody is perfect but I think all that bullshit falls on me.

Sorry if I wrote this here but I just feel like it. I would like you guys to know that if you see me smiling, it's only on the outside, but deep inside I am really suffering as hell.

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I hope everything will be alright for me someday. I hope someday I will be happy and someday I will be free. I hope the chaos in me will end and my anger and hate will be replaced with love and joy. I think I am the unluckiest person on this planet as of now. Because I am nothing, hollow, alone, and had nothing to turn to. No one understands me. No one hears me but there are hundreds of people fucking and messing with my life. If killing is not a sin then I would have probably killed them all.


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The saddest thing for me is that the thing that
you want the most is what you will never have. I looked at her
everyday, but I can't even touch a single strand of her hair. I am like
a ghost that goes through anything. I almost feel like I don't exist at
all. My heart beats with a hollow rhythm, I breathe endless poisonous
gas and still I feel nothing. I am somewhat trapped between the living
and the dead. Feel like I'm neither. Why is this happening? Is this a
curse that I will suffer through eternity? God if only I could touch
her hand, and feel the warmth of her spirit. If only I could feel the
softness of her hair. If only I could sell my soul to the devil, I
would do it. Just to let her know that I love her and I need her.


I tried to be good, I tried to be nice and this is what I get? Fuck me!! No matter how hard I tried it seems that there are things you cannot change no matter what. When you are fucked, you are really fucked that's how I say it. It really hurts when the person that you cared the most, the friend that you treasured and the soul that brings you light has suddenly changed. I don't know why but I can't feel her anymore. It seems that she is drifting further away from me. I don't know the reason why she had done it but I have no right to hold her, she is just a friend that's all and I am letting her go wherever her desires take her.

No one in this lifetime has suffered more than me. Everyday anywhere I look I envy on the people around me. I look at them and I asked myself a question. Why? Why am I like this? I could be like that if it wasn't with this. I could be happy just like them. I could laugh like them, smile like them but that shit won't ever happen, not now not tomorrow and possibly forever. Everyday I tried to hide my sadness behind a fake smile. I am free but lives like a prisoner my parents happily built for me. That's why I hate them.


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